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Re: Boredom

Postby Manners73 » Wed Jul 10, 2019 7:27 pm

saucygirl31 wrote:do u ever think finding other people boring is just a projection of ur own boringness?

i often wonder, "maybe im the boring one".

and often times i am fairly boring, because i just have nothing to say.

depends on who im with largely


Its not even really that I find people boring if I'm honest and I don't really think I was saying that.

What I'm meaning is is that I can find that I really enjoy being in the company of certain people and the hours will just fly by but my need for more stimulation will take over and I'll hit a dead end. That's not them being boring because they're not. That's me wanting more.

It used to happen all the time when I was a kid. I'll be out playing like a normal child and then the next thing is I'm throwing bricks at windows or stealing or terrorising the local shopkeeper's and residents. The other kids parents would then keep them away from me.

That's not their fault because before my urge takes over I'm just as usual as they are but then I cross a line.

That's what I'm on about.
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Re: Boredom

Postby Reaper » Thu Jul 11, 2019 4:08 am

ZeroZ wrote:How does it feel like to you, how do you experience it.


It's frustrating and because I have so much energy that's not being used, the frustration leads to aggression. Then I just want to go out and kill the first fuker I see.

I feel stagnant at the moment. Everything feels dull and dead. Nothing really interests me. I want excitement and stimulation, danger and risk. I want something that reminds me I'm alive instead of this fuking boredom all the time.
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She manipulates this forum, and some of the people on it, more than people realise.
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Re: Boredom

Postby justonemoreperson » Thu Jul 11, 2019 5:24 am

I get restless and start pacing around, looking for something to do. It's a state of mind for me. I'm happy in my own company and crave it, able to sit with my own thoughts for some time.

But, if I'm forced into it, waiting in line, for example, my tolerance goes out of the window and I get aggressive.
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Re: Boredom

Postby Squaredonutwheels » Thu Jul 11, 2019 5:31 am

I'd be hesitant to call boredom an emotion in itself. It probably is, but I don't experience it that way.

Maybe an absence or disconnect from emotions?

I don't know about you, but some of the more damaging behaviors I find myself being drawn to are rooted in sensation seeking which at it's core was to try a desperate attempt to feel something emotional.

Boredom isn't so much what's actually happening but how plain the inner world is that experiences it.

The thread that HSS posted is very interesting because it outlines ways that breakthroughs seem to happen. For me it was a combination of physically debilitating injury that's been going on for a year now; narcissistic injury of how strong I thought I was and most of all grief. Grief and loss seems to be a crack.

If you're bored, I'd invite you to try to connect with your emotions?
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Re: Boredom

Postby justonemoreperson » Thu Jul 11, 2019 7:18 am

I think it's confining; that I'm stuck in something I have no control over. So I look for ways to change the situation and sometimes I have nothing at my disposal to do so, which is frustrating.
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Re: Boredom

Postby Manners73 » Thu Jul 11, 2019 6:09 pm

^^yes confining that's a good word.

I remember once seeing a bird tied to a tree by it's feet. I can remember thinking that it must have just died there like that. Frustrated.
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Re: Boredom

Postby ArchCannon » Fri Jul 12, 2019 2:24 am

ZeroZ wrote:How does it feel like to you, how do you experience it.


To me boredom is like an unfulfilled need for stimulation. Sometimes feels unfulfillable (is unfulfillable a word? idk).
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Re: Boredom

Postby ZeroZ » Fri Jul 12, 2019 12:22 pm

ArchCannon wrote:
ZeroZ wrote:How does it feel like to you, how do you experience it.


To me boredom is like an unfulfilled need for stimulation. Sometimes feels unfulfillable (is unfulfillable a word? idk).


I make up words all the time, I even make up how I punctuate sentences I don’t care, I like my way better. Sometimes I space out my paragraphs so they are all even and the same size I don’t care if I cut a word in half :D
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Re: Boredom

Postby ArchCannon » Fri Jul 12, 2019 12:55 pm

I mean, sure, yeah but, the goal is to deliver a message. And there is no point in delivering an incomprehensible message
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