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how do you get over the urge

Postby richard2002 » Wed Feb 13, 2019 7:03 am

when I regularly used a dissociative hallucinogenic which opened my eyes to various ways in which I perceived myself and the world around me, I started having violent scenes appearing in my mind upon the sight of most people and I couldn't escape it. (note: violent = stabbing, dragging, etc.) I had no problem with these scenes from a conscience standpoint but the fact that I was experiencing them very frequently was very annoying.

I stopped using the drug for a different reason entirely, and I continued having the visualizations but less frequently than before.

well, I'm using a different substance now that is a stimulant but does not heavily alter the way in which you perceive reality, but I feel so powerful and agile. I am starting to experience the same visualizations with an upward trend in frequency. I love drugs because they make my life more exciting but I hate having my mind occupied by this #######4 that I cannot do without getting arrested. How do you get over these urges, what is a good substitute to actually committing the action? I have no intent on actually doing anything I picture in my mind because I have way too many ambitions for myself to go to jail.
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby Manners73 » Tue Feb 19, 2019 8:35 pm

You've just answered your own question in the last sentence.
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby Siegfried » Wed Feb 20, 2019 12:24 am

Would you suffer eternally, or internally?
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby Jonna » Thu Feb 21, 2019 1:17 pm

I've never gotten over it…It’s like a simmering background noise that’s always there. Like a second nature. The most I can do is minimize its intensity through various tricks and methods – some which happen instinctively, others by consciousness. I know when I just don’t like somebody’s face the more I am around the person the more intense it will get. And I know how good everything is after the release. So I don't stay in environments where that is happening. If its ten feet away from the person, soon that won't be enough. The urge starts to catch up, so something needs to happen. I have found that ruining the person in an underhanded manner gives it some release, at least for awhile. I think being successful has also helped keep it at bay and knowing certain triggers…People often say I look calm….relaxed…comfortable maybe because my body holds itself in a way intended to keep the triggers well-insulated. People who know me now would never believe if I told them about all the stuff I did. I don’t even tell them because it doesn’t fit with my persona….it might negatively affect my self-interest or make it harder for people to trust me. Even where somebody is telling me about stuff they have done, I’ll just act naïve or like “wow”....I never let them goad me into tipping my hand. Plus, the innocent persona always gives me the element of surprise if an opportunity comes up that requires a betrayal of some kind. Physical fitness is another method to channel it. Plus, I don’t want to go to jail. That said, it still slips out from time to time. It has upsides...being more in control of it makes me a better schemer. with destruction of property, I think I just outgrew it. My job also affords me many opportunities for mental aggression, so I'm not directly destroying people's property but I can end up destroying somebody's interests and even get paid for doing it.
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby SoloZombie » Thu Feb 21, 2019 1:39 pm

Jonna have you ever tried medication, if so did anything work for you? Ssri help me a bit but I still have meltdowns at times. They wanted to put me on mood stabilizers to help with my irritability and violent thoughts but I didn’t want any more drugs. I’ve heard of low dose anti psychotics being use too
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby Manners73 » Fri Feb 22, 2019 7:47 pm

Sometimes all I want to do is f*ck someone up the sh*tter.

It's an urge that if someone was readily available I'm not sure I could control.

And as I'm a civilised person I know it's not socially acceptable to rape the first arsehole I see and stab them with my prize winning cucumber from my daddy's allotment.
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby SoloZombie » Fri Feb 22, 2019 10:22 pm

Manners73 wrote:Sometimes all I want to do is f*ck someone up the sh*tter.

It's an urge that if someone was readily available I'm not sure I could control.

And as I'm a civilised person I know it's not socially acceptable to rape the first arsehole I see and stab them with my prize winning cucumber from my daddy's allotment.


Lmao
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby sadfrog » Sun Feb 24, 2019 3:54 pm

that sounds terrible, what do you do?
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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby Brandon1 » Wed Feb 27, 2019 3:15 am

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Re: how do you get over the urge

Postby Squaredonutwheels » Wed Feb 27, 2019 9:06 am

Manners73 wrote:Sometimes all I want to do is f*ck someone up the sh*tter.

It's an urge that if someone was readily available I'm not sure I could control.

And as I'm a civilised person I know it's not socially acceptable to rape the first arsehole I see and stab them with my prize winning cucumber from my daddy's allotment.

Combined with your username, this post is just.. just :D
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