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Postby xdisconnectedx » Wed Dec 26, 2018 1:29 am

For everyone, since someone thought I'm female: No, I'm male and gay.

I got manic a few days ago and I still am. I noticed that by that I have my sociopathy a lot more under controle. I'm a lot nicer to everyone and I don't get aggressive and impulsive as quick/as much as normally, can anyone relate with that? It's interesting. I love manic phases by the way. Every time I'm manic I turn my problems 180° around. I have no depression at all, I destroyed my hypochondria and anxiety disorder and I changed my low selt esteem and self worth to a high selt esteem and self worth. I changed many things and now I feel much better, I'm absolutely happy and delighted about life. But back to the topic: Has anyone here experienced the same effects of mania on sociopathy? That it gives the sociopathic symptoms a kind of more stabil touche?
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Re: Maniac

Postby Solowolfpack » Wed Dec 26, 2018 1:37 am

Everyone loves mania until it ends and you crash. I have no diagnosis of bi polar, although it was suspected for awhile because I do have periods of hypo mania. For me it usually means I will get out and become very active, but everything is sort of half assed and not properly planned out and I go from not socializing to running around with a lot of different women.

I feel more like King Kong, unstoppable, like I could do anything and sometimes I try. I was having fantasies I was a god on top of s mountain for awhile. That was strange, I don’t know about more friendly, more social for sure.
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Re: Maniac

Postby xdisconnectedx » Wed Dec 26, 2018 1:57 am

Solowolfpack wrote:Everyone loves mania until it ends and you crash. I have no diagnosis of bi polar, although it was suspected for awhile because I do have periods of hypo mania. For me it usually means I will get out and become very active, but everything is sort of half assed and not properly planned out and I go from not socializing to running around with a lot of different women.

I feel more like King Kong, unstoppable, like I could do anything and sometimes I try. I was having fantasies I was a god on top of s mountain for awhile. That was strange, I don’t know about more friendly, more social for sure.


Yes, sociallizing is something I did today as well. I wrote "hundreds" of old friends and wrote about a lot of stuff. If I'm manic and don't do such stuff I feel extremely bored.

My mania comes from lorazepam. A benzodiazepine. It's effects are a lot different for me like for the rest of humanity. I don't get sedated, I can active, manic, fearless, motivated, energetic, calmer, more stable and my depression vanishes. Also I get unrestrained. Like on alcohole. That's because both benzos and alcohole have something to do with the GABA receptors.

A theory of mine is that taking pure GABA can help with several disorders. Like depression, but also sociopathy. It can help to relax and be more calm, also it can kill peoples shyness. It's a genius neurotransmitter in my opinion.
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Re: Maniac

Postby slither » Wed Dec 26, 2018 4:54 am

xdisconnectedx wrote:Also I get unrestrained.
Lorazepam does the same for me; I do feel sedated on it, but also energetic and disinhibited at the same time. If I'm feeling down or bored, that also tends to go away on 2mg of the stuff.
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Re: Maniac

Postby Squaredonutwheels » Wed Dec 26, 2018 5:09 am

Can relate to this.
Mine usually manifests as feeling that everything is "perfect" and that everything no matter how "wrong" is perfect and beautiful. My vision literally changes and things look high definition and sparkly.

Not sure about it balancing out sociopathic tenancies though. For me it makes it far more likely that I'd do something callous because when manic even violence seems to be beautiful and perfect. I get very social but I think the "niceness" is just a way of pulling people in. I'm still not sure if I actually care.

I'm not medicated though.

When it passes I get depressed and bored again.
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Re: Maniac

Postby CandleInTheWindow » Wed Dec 26, 2018 7:32 pm

That mania thing sounds like me and how I am every morning.

I'm more chirpy and sociable in the morning time and I feel like I can take on the world and then as soon as my meds kick in and I have a cigarette it kind of takes the shine off everything.

But then at about 3pm when my meds a wearing off my head starts to get all fizzy again and I go all happy again.

I just thought it was ADHD.
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