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Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby Reaper » Thu Dec 13, 2018 5:23 pm

Share your story on what it's like to grow up with and live with a disorder/condition that is viewed so negatively in society.

Tell us...

If you were clinically diagnosed, self-diagnosed or suspect you have AsPD/psychopathy
If you showed any early signs of your disorder/condition
The first time you became aware of your disorder/condition
The impact it's had on your life and your family
Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition
How your disorder/condition is still affecting you now
How your disorder/condition may impact your future
Sometimes I wish I could set the world on fire just to watch it all burn down.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby MrThetaBeta » Thu Dec 13, 2018 5:41 pm

I got seizures, have popped out about 4-5 grams a mercury and silver.

How your disorder/condition may impact your future


I'm on the verge a homelessness and Pavlovian style spiritualists seem to live through me vicariously.

The impact it's had on your life and your family


My Mother came from a War torn country, so I figure the suicide of my brother is unrelated to me specifically, however my adoption leaves me abandoning my family late in life due to reasons that I simply cannot give a $#%^ about people who are that much better without the hassle.

Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition


Identified gifted in a roman catholic school. Dental problems thereafter. Lots a jerking off. Plenty of solemnness growing up to the point a barely being able to orgasm.

I meet a superficial triad definition. Some triangle centered over Pescara. My seizure struck during the song Sumev dna Sulumor. My mothers identity is unknown to me. My recent friend had her children stolen from her so some jerk dauphins or something have been playing Terminator, Star Wars, Dr Suess and Speilburg with me.
All you bitches belong to me www.asmrstudio.com
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby slither » Thu Dec 13, 2018 7:26 pm

Reaper wrote:Tell us...

If you were clinically diagnosed, self-diagnosed or suspect you have AsPD/psychopathy
It was suggested I may have Personality disorder NOS. Later, an MRI revealed brain lesions, but a neurologist said they were benign. I have not been given an fMRI, nor have I been evaluated for psychopathy, but I suspect I am one. In the past I thought it was sociopathy, but the traits I have were always there, IE it was not nurture.

Reaper wrote:If you showed any early signs of your disorder/condition
Unemotional, sometimes mean, urges to hurt/kill other people.
Reaper wrote:The first time you became aware of your disorder/condition
I was curious about contract killing and later, serial killing. This clued me off that I may not be neurologically typical. Early teens is the time period I considered the possibility of being a psychopath.
Reaper wrote:The impact it's had on your life and your family
Low achiever; no long term plan, inability to feel genuine prosocial emotion, thus I'm not one for team spirit or shared positive emotion (think a crowd cheering). Disinterest in relationships due to boredom.
Reaper wrote:Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition
I call it an affliction. There have been a couple assaults, though.
Reaper wrote:How your disorder/condition is still affecting you now
Not having a long term plan and not feeling emotions about that means I'll likely stay a low achiever, and I don't care. I've spent much of my time attempting to learn about myself. I thought I was capable of introspection early on, but it only really came to me in my early to mid 20s.
Reaper wrote:How your disorder/condition may impact your future
I don't know.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby slither » Thu Dec 20, 2018 1:38 am

Reaper wrote:Share your story on what it's like to grow up with and live with a disorder/condition that is viewed so negatively in society.
One thing I forgot to talk about was a dream that I had earlier this year.

I was on an unfamiliar terrain, possibly not Earth, and before me were several small creatures (nothing recognizable in the real world). I picked one up. I did not know this was going to happen, but I all of a sudden began to squeeze it in my hands. It was unconscious on my part. It went limp and a white liquid began to ooze from it. I enjoyed the squeezing and knowing it was dead.

I've seen sleeping dogs act out their dreams, often I feel I'm glimpsing their instinctual nature. On that day, I believe I glimpsed mine.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby FormallyZach31 » Thu Dec 20, 2018 10:35 am

Reaper wrote:
If you were clinically diagnosed, self-diagnosed or suspect you have AsPD/psychopathy
If you showed any early signs of your disorder/condition
The first time you became aware of your disorder/condition
The impact it's had on your life and your family
Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition
How your disorder/condition is still affecting you now
How your disorder/condition may impact your future


I was diagnosed with it yes, and I used to think I had signs of it and so on. In reality, I was given a label by a moron with a diploma.
It has had no impact on my life or family due to it not being real.

some people here just seem to try and fit into this label becasue you become what you are labeled with. people should wake up and stop putting yourself in such a small box.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby Solowolfpack » Thu Dec 20, 2018 4:41 pm

FormallyZach31 wrote:
Reaper wrote:
If you were clinically diagnosed, self-diagnosed or suspect you have AsPD/psychopathy
If you showed any early signs of your disorder/condition
The first time you became aware of your disorder/condition
The impact it's had on your life and your family
Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition
How your disorder/condition is still affecting you now
How your disorder/condition may impact your future


I was diagnosed with it yes, and I used to think I had signs of it and so on. In reality, I was given a label by a moron with a diploma.
It has had no impact on my life or family due to it not being real.

some people here just seem to try and fit into this label becasue you become what you are labeled with. people should wake up and stop putting yourself in such a small box.



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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby caspin » Thu Dec 20, 2018 5:42 pm

Girls dont go down the rabbit hole, you wont find the way up. It is possible to live with a person who has aspd. It is also possible that it is bad, its more possible that you see the person for what they are after a while. Also possible you gonna eat with each other, I am no saint but I am correct.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby xdisconnectedx » Sun Dec 23, 2018 12:01 pm

Reaper wrote:Share your story on what it's like to grow up with and live with a disorder/condition that is viewed so negatively in society.

Tell us...

If you were clinically diagnosed, self-diagnosed or suspect you have AsPD/psychopathy
If you showed any early signs of your disorder/condition
The first time you became aware of your disorder/condition
The impact it's had on your life and your family
Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition
How your disorder/condition is still affecting you now
How your disorder/condition may impact your future


(My therapist officially told me I'm a sociopath. That means I can answer these questions)

Tell us...
If you were clinically diagnosed, self-diagnosed or suspect you have AsPD/psychopathy
Yes, since last thursday.

If you showed any early signs of your disorder/condition
Well, as a kid I build torture devices and tortured small animals, but only snails and worms and so on. I also almost killed a hedgehog but my best friend discouraged me to do it. I was cruel to cats and I was brutal to my rats. BUT since a lot of years I changed and I wouldn't ever hurt an animal again. Animals are by the way the only living beings I feel real empathy for. I love animals and I just don't want to hurt them again.
As a kid I always had fits of rage. I also lied very often. When I was young I started to watch real gore videos of poeple being tortured and killed, I liked it and was fascinated by it.

The first time you became aware of your disorder/condition
2-3 years ago I noticed something was different and that I've changed in several aspects.

The impact it's had on your life and your family
I often had harsh arguments with family members and friends about my antisocial behaviour. I was often told I'm completely ruthless, they often were frustrated because of my behaviour and they never understood how I can be so cold. When I told my family this week that I'm a sociopath they weren't happy about it. My mother said something dumb: she asked if I'm a murderer now. Well but other than that they handled it well and nothing is different now.

Any interesting experiences that were caused/influenced/affected by your disorder/condition
Well, one time I destroyed a lot of car tires. I never respected my teachers. I destroyed the wall of my teachers house, often buyed illegal drugs and weapons, stole money from my parents and one time some money from my school and committed many other crimes. I often got into conflicts with other people because of my heartlessness. I lost a few friends because of my sociopathy, because like I said in the last question they thought I'm completely ruthless.

How your disorder/condition is still affecting you now
I'm starting to accept myself more and more the last weeks. I almost have no problem with my sociopathy anymore. First I hated it because I remembered how empathic I was a few years ago. But now I came to terms with it and I actually like it because it's easier for me to live without empathy and guilt feelings. It makes a lot of things easier and I feel more free. I even told most of my friends and family like I already said and I'm happy they still accept me (to some of them I lied and said they're the only ones I feel empathy for, because I didn't want to lose them, it was easier to lie.)

How your disorder/condition may impact your future
I seriously don't know. I just hope I won't end up completely alone which would be absolutely boring. I also hope I won't get problems with the police again, I never want to be in jail.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby justonemoreperson » Sun Dec 23, 2018 6:56 pm

xdisconnectedx wrote:
(My therapist officially told me I'm a sociopath. That means I can answer these questions)


Not until your badge arrives in the mail. This can take 3-4 weeks.
I'm not arguing, I'm explaining why I'm right.
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Re: Living With AsPD and/or Psychopathy

Postby xdisconnectedx » Mon Dec 24, 2018 10:45 am

justonemoreperson wrote:
xdisconnectedx wrote:
(My therapist officially told me I'm a sociopath. That means I can answer these questions)


Not until your badge arrives in the mail. This can take 3-4 weeks.


Oh shut up... Do you think that I think I'm "cooler" now that I know I'm a sociopath? I already wrote in another thread that that is wrong. The only reason I wrote that is to clarify that I'm not an actor or that I'm lying and that I'm very happy to have clarity now about who or what I am. Clarity is very important to me. So no, I don't need a ######6 badge.
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