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No one believes me

Postby xdisconnectedx » Thu Nov 22, 2018 2:52 pm

First of all: I STILL don't know if I have this diagnosis. I'm just writing here because I don't know where else I could write about this topic: empathy.

The thing is: I'm REALLY pissed about some friends and family. I DO have a problem with empathy and I don't even care anymore if I can categorize this problem as a disorder. All I know is that I completely lack empathy. Problems or the well being (as long as they don't die) of friends and family leave me completely cold. I'm simply not able to care about such things. My mother was in the hospital and was in severe pain, but I felt absolutely nothing for her. When my friends tell me about their problems I literally have to FORCE me to say stuff like "Aww is verything okay?" or "I want to help you". Such sentences NEVER come out of my mouth willingly. I could care less about other humans. On the other side I hate to be alone and I definitely can feel love. It's only problematic when it's about empathy.

And what drives me mad is that I apparently play my "empathic role" so good that NO ONE believes me that my false empathy is just a play and not real. I told several family member and friends that I can't feel for other people like they do. But no one believes me and it makes me very very pissed. I don't want to have problems with empathy but it's simply how it is. I want them to acknowledge this problem and believe me. But noooo, they said that I'm the nicest person they know and that I'm definitely very empathic. The thing is that I KNOW that it's all just a mask, because I PURPOSELY act like I care about their problems and feel something like empathy. Maybe I should be glad that they don't believe me, maybe they should just stick with this image of me they currently still have. Maybe I would lose them if they believed me. But it still makes me angry, because no one sees me for who I really am.
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Re: No one believes me

Postby Solowolfpack » Thu Nov 22, 2018 3:14 pm

I get that too, on here more than real life, I know what to say and when to say it, I do it to keep the relationship in good standing. Sounds like you do the same, it’s alittle frustrating to struggle with something and not have people believe it’s real, I’d look at it this way you are not so crazy that you can’t at least act normal. That’s a good thing, it’s something you can build on. What you think and feel isn’t as important as the the action you take anyway, if you do the right things, does it matter that you didn’t mean it, or feel it?
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Re: No one believes me

Postby xdisconnectedx » Thu Nov 22, 2018 3:22 pm

Solowolfpack wrote:I get that too, on here more than real life, I know what to say and when to say it, I do it to keep the relationship in good standing. Sounds like you do the same, it’s alittle frustrating to struggle with something and not have people believe it’s real, I’d look at it this way you are not so crazy that you can’t at least act normal. That’s a good thing, it’s something you can build on. What you think and feel isn’t as important as the the action you take anyway, if you do the right things, does it matter that you didn’t mean it, or feel it?


I'm glad someone understands this problem. You're right, it's extremely frustrating. But yes, I'm sane enough to act normal and you're probably right that doing the right things is more important than what you think. I often feel like a monster in disguise. I guess I hate this problem with empathy so much because in the past I was able to feel empathy like everyone else. That makes it a lot worse.
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Re: No one believes me

Postby PsychoGenesis » Thu Nov 22, 2018 3:26 pm

welcome to my world


they are not ready!!!!!!

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Re: No one believes me

Postby xdisconnectedx » Thu Nov 22, 2018 3:28 pm

I like that matrix reference.
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Re: No one believes me

Postby Jonna » Thu Nov 22, 2018 4:05 pm

...because I PURPOSELY act like I care about their problems and feel something like empathy.


Why?
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Re: No one believes me

Postby xdisconnectedx » Thu Nov 22, 2018 4:36 pm

Jonna wrote:
...because I PURPOSELY act like I care about their problems and feel something like empathy.


Why?


Because I want to be like everyone else. I want to blend in. On the other side (like I said) I want them to acknowledge my problem with empathy. But mostly I feel like I have to play along and be the person everyone expects me to be.
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Re: No one believes me

Postby MrThetaBeta » Thu Nov 22, 2018 4:44 pm

And who are you really?

Empathy is probably the wrong term to use as you are expressing cognitive empathy in this post.

I suggest that you are failing to understand that it is your sensitivity that you are frustrated with.

Try reducing, lowering or otherwise eliminating flouride from your diet.

We are deficient in melatonin, which you need to get in your diet via tryptophan and serotonins. It is essentially that you get good, to high quality ingredients.

So. Stop considering this being your deficit and start thinking about neuro-plasticity. I know the term is in conflict with health and well being but it is the socially reforming idea that something that refuses to bend may in fact be too rigid, and break. It also steps you back to consider the poisonous aspects that are possible with rush to market bunk.
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Re: No one believes me

Postby xdisconnectedx » Thu Nov 22, 2018 4:54 pm

MrThetaBeta wrote:And who are you really?

Empathy is probably the wrong term to use as you are expressing cognitive empathy in this post.

I suggest that you are failing to understand that it is your sensitivity that you are frustrated with.

Try reducing, lowering or otherwise eliminating flouride from your diet.

We are deficient in melatonin, which you need to get in your diet via tryptophan and serotonins. It is essentially that you get good, to high quality ingredients.

So. Stop considering this being your deficit and start thinking about neuro-plasticity. I know the term is in conflict with health and well being but it is the socially reforming idea that something that refuses to bend may in fact be too rigid, and break. It also steps you back to consider the poisonous aspects that are possible with rush to market bunk.


I already avoid fluoride as much as possible, because of my third eye/pineal gland. Until now everyone thought that's a psychosis of mine. I'm actually diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I don't think the third eye thing is a part of that. By the way, cleansing my body of fluoride opened my third eye last year and I saw another world, I was able to communicate with beings from other dimensions, they had many different forms, I saw aura and a thick energy flowed and swirled like water everywhere. I absolutely hate fluoride. And I'm taking 6 mg melatonine every night, it helps me with my sleep disorder.

What do you mean with sensitivity exactly? You're right that I'm very sensitive, but in what way do you mean that? What would you call my lack of feelings for other humans?
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Re: No one believes me

Postby PsychoGenesis » Thu Nov 22, 2018 5:29 pm

xdisconnectedx wrote:
MrThetaBeta wrote:And who are you really?

Empathy is probably the wrong term to use as you are expressing cognitive empathy in this post.

I suggest that you are failing to understand that it is your sensitivity that you are frustrated with.

Try reducing, lowering or otherwise eliminating flouride from your diet.

We are deficient in melatonin, which you need to get in your diet via tryptophan and serotonins. It is essentially that you get good, to high quality ingredients.

So. Stop considering this being your deficit and start thinking about neuro-plasticity. I know the term is in conflict with health and well being but it is the socially reforming idea that something that refuses to bend may in fact be too rigid, and break. It also steps you back to consider the poisonous aspects that are possible with rush to market bunk.


I already avoid fluoride as much as possible, because of my third eye/pineal gland. Until now everyone thought that's a psychosis of mine. I'm actually diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I don't think the third eye thing is a part of that. By the way, cleansing my body of fluoride opened my third eye last year and I saw another world, I was able to communicate with beings from other dimensions, they had many different forms, I saw aura and a thick energy flowed and swirled like water everywhere. I absolutely hate fluoride. And I'm taking 6 mg melatonine every night, it helps me with my sleep disorder.

i take 1/20 of that and it works as well as higher dosages for me(checked with sleep tracker)
timing is very important too> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmBSjPQ3pCM
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our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure''


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