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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby PsychoGenesis » Thu Nov 08, 2018 9:38 pm

all hoes end up like sociopaths, i think you're normal



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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby ASPDADHDETC » Thu Nov 08, 2018 9:56 pm

Can you elaborate ? I am unclear of what you are insinuating here...

That I am Neurotypical and do not have ASPD ?

Also not clear on how or why it would be thought that I was a "hoe" and what bearing that would have on my behaviors or actions ?

To be clear, I am not denying, just trying to clarify what you meant so I can respond more efficiently.

You know how us hoe's can be with our questions :p
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby Squaredonutwheels » Thu Nov 08, 2018 10:19 pm

ASPDADHDETC wrote:Hi, Long time ASPD, ADHD, ASD, etc. haver, first time caller.

I have known for a very long time that I wasn't like everyone else. Typical things didn't interest me, and I was easily bored by typical topics and interests. I enjoyed power, biology, and learning how people thought. It was easy for me to fake emotions because I thought I had them but that I was able to turn them off when I didnt require their use. I began harming animals and peers quietly and because I am a female it was much easier to manipulate peers and adults into thinking I was just doing what a peer asked, or that the animal was injured from my trying to get them in the house or from another animal....

As I became a teenager, I was again blessed by being attractive and a woman. I had a male partner who was a homicide detective, and often he protected me from any criminal charges, even though I had stabbed people, beaten people and even broke into peoples homes, hog tied them and played with them for hours... I have never seen the inside of a cell.

Later in life I became a mother, and I only realized then that I had not ever loved or cared for anything. i have recently discovered that I may only love my child because they are an extension of me. I now feel a switch has taken place and that I do feel more emotional and less calculated than before. It is harder for me to switch the off button and be strategic about my actions.

I still feel the pressure and urges to hurt people and play but I can not. I am extremely good at masking. I am well respected in my community, politics, and social aspects though I have less interest in it now. I am a typical wealthy woman with typical children, soccer practice etc. but I often find myself daydreaming of things I can not share.... I find my sexual desire to harm pulses and I do not enjoy BDSM as much as I'd like to ... I do work out which helps with the physical release a bit but my urge for the unmentionable things is hard.

Parenting with all of this as well is challenging and I want to do the best for my children because I do love them. I am not sure where that leaves me, I would love to connect with others like me anonymously of course. What has worked for you ? What is your story ?


WTF is this stinking pile of excrement. I picture you hogtying your victims with your acrylic nail extensions breaking off on the knots. Your true detective hubby is in the corner jerking off while you stab away "and played with them for hours....". At best it reads like you're a frustrated plasticated suburban mommy, with a fail grade kink porn script for a brain.

You discovered you don't love then end with that you love. You can't figure out basic sh1t in a single post how the hell do you know if any of your copypasted thoughts are even real.

You want to connect to this sub forum, this is how I respond to bins that are full. I want to take them out.
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby ASPDADHDETC » Thu Nov 08, 2018 10:35 pm

I am still unclear of if I do or don't love anything or anyone. Sort of why I wanted to see what others are like here.

What is extremely clear is your aggression and upset with me... I find that interesting.
I am guessing you lean more socio than psycho.. can't control your emotional outbursts and things get to you easily...

What was the intention of your comment ? are you hoping it will get a reaction from me ?
are you wanting to vent your annoyance at my experience because you think I ( or others) value your opinion ?

truthfully I am interested in hearing more from you, and I am guessing that won't be hard because you are very low on self control.... :lol:
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby xcagedsilhouttex » Thu Nov 08, 2018 10:52 pm

@ASPD...

Are you a stay at home mum?
dx: Mixed Personality Disorder (F61)
Anorexia Nervosa (F50)
Substance Abuse (F11)

What you do matters more than what you think
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby naps » Thu Nov 08, 2018 10:56 pm

ASPDADHDETC wrote:i have had a boob job, etc. so things are more aesthetically pleasing and the BPD makes me care a great deal about my own appearance. I work out ( cardio and 5 day split) I intermittent fast and count macros. I have botox, lip injections, hair extensions, eye lash extensions... you get it.


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You'll need a pussy lift.

Are you really wealthy?
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby cutecactus » Thu Nov 08, 2018 10:58 pm

Wow, Amanda Lepore has really let herself go!
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby naps » Thu Nov 08, 2018 11:01 pm

No, that's my mom. In high school.
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby Squaredonutwheels » Thu Nov 08, 2018 11:06 pm

ASPDADHDETC wrote:I am still unclear of if I do or don't love anything or anyone. Sort of why I wanted to see what others are like here.

What is extremely clear is your aggression and upset with me... I find that interesting.
I am guessing you lean more socio than psycho.. can't control your emotional outbursts and things get to you easily...

What was the intention of your comment ? are you hoping it will get a reaction from me ?
are you wanting to vent your annoyance at my experience because you think I ( or others) value your opinion ?

truthfully I am interested in hearing more from you, and I am guessing that won't be hard because you are very low on self control.... :lol:


I am pleasantly surprised at this reply. You are right about my intention of my comment. It was to trying to get your attention. It was my attempt to gauge were I thought you were and try glean more information to arrive at a clearer picture of where to slot you into my mind. I figured a crass sh1tpost would be the best method to deliver the package as it very quickly exposes the generic f*ckups that roll on through here seeking shelter.

As for your questioning about love, I actually think it is an interesting question. I was just throwing it up there to see if it would throw you in a loop but it exposed genuine curiosity and that is where you meet me now.

I also find it interesting how you didn't directly defend your post from my rather crude probes and instead turned around to question my own motivations. Again this is a place you meet me. You'll notice that several posters question one another to meet at a point of understanding. Often it appears quite "mean" or "aggressive" but there is a reason for it.

-- Fri Nov 09, 2018 10:10 am --

I find it interesting how the "attacks" on persona are actually about trying to peel back the layers of fantasy to try meet at something more real. It's a left handed path of being intimate.
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Re: Spectrum of #####&

Postby Fool » Fri Nov 09, 2018 1:29 am

do you spend a lot of time talking to yourself?
"Kindly let me help before you drown" said the monkey, lifting the fish into the tree.
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