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Think I'm Starting to Heal

Postby healingslowly » Sat Jan 02, 2021 5:30 pm

I am still on antipsychotic medication. Having said that I am trying to heal myself in all the ways I can, while being 24/7 on a substance that, to my definition, makes total and complete healing impossible. I don't really know what to say here, as this is my first post and I am new to the antipsych movement although it resonates with me, and has for a long time. I think the trauma that I experienced from being hospitalized and forced on medication was larger than the trauma that made me 'go insane,' before. According to my experience, it was suffering to an extreme that I was out of my depth and couldn't control or hide it, that brought me into the mental ward. It was a complete blockage of everything that caused that suffering, that got me out of it. This is what I don't agree with. The drygs took my pain away, and now I'm in a state where I'm not in touch with any deep part of myself. I think it was right for me to respond so dramatically to things that had happened in my life, before I as hospitalized. Even though I was in what others called a dangerous place, I think there was a way I could have gotten through it, maybe with a lot of the right kind of therapy, and then been able to heal and be ok again. But since that was not the route I was allowed to take and I was shoved into the hospital, I'm unable to heal from my first trauma and cannot even comprehend the trauma that all this forced psychiatry has brought to my perspective. I do have a really good therapist now. We've just started sessions, and I feel like I am maybe able to in the future develop a plan for how I could wean off or think about how that could happen. I am not bound to it, by law, anymore. I think it should be my right to make a choice about what I can say no to and what I feel comfortable with. I feel so hurt by what other people have said and convinced me are the 'right' ways to think, the 'healthy' ways to be in relationship to myself, which I don't think are healthy at all. Things are better than they used to be. I'm on a lighter medication than I was on before, and recently have started on a slightly lower dose of it. Because of that, my parents see me behaving more emotionally and think that's a real reason for concern and that I should probably go back to the higher dose. I personally just think I'm having a delayed response to things I haven't been able to process in my past, and that that's normal.
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Re: Think I'm Starting to Heal

Postby Copy_Cat » Sun Jan 24, 2021 5:04 am

Thats cool,

Your post went so long unanswered. I should check this board more. I was so active at one time.
I survived psychiatry.
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