why do you want to be thin?

I like to feel my bones. It calms me.

I want to be thin because I have always equated being thin with being beautiful. Maybe it was all the models I saw in magazines or mall windows, or maybe it was my parents going on a diet and causing everybody else in the house to as well. I have always hated everything about myself, but always thought that if I lost weight I could still have "Oh well atleast I'm thin" as something.