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"i will light your darkness with confusion" ...

Postby shock_the_monkey » Sun Jul 01, 2018 6:48 pm

and that was exactly what it felt like, caring for my father with alzheimer's disease for over a year. as the disease progressed, everything fell into a darkness that was totally confused. if he understood me, he often didn't say so. if i asked him anything, he almost always replied that he didn't know. and, i have to say, the thing that threw me the most was that here i was trying to communicate with someone who had always been perfectly rational and i just couldn't get my head around the fact that he appeared to make no sense anymore. towards the end i started to twig that even if he did understand me, he just wasn't able to translate that understanding into actions. and, even if he said he didn't know, somewhere at a deeper inaccessible level there was a reason for what he did. i have to say that i remain deeply saddened that i didn't realise these things sooner. my father's parting gift to me was to get me to understand that i didn't understand.
something knocked me out' the trees
now i'm on my knees
... don't you know you're gonna shock the monkey

there is one thing you must be sure of
i can't take any more
... don't you know you're gonna shock the monkey

don't like it but i guess i'm learning

... shock the monkey to life
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Re: "i will light your darkness with confusion" ...

Postby Cassandre » Sun Jul 08, 2018 5:06 pm

Did you get along well before he was ill, if I'm not prying?
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