My situation

Hi everyone, my name is Dave, I am a man of course, im new here, id like to share a little of my life here and meet some people who are also dealing with similar situation as me so I dont feel like im the only one in the world who is like this, which I feel like I am the only one in my area thats like this, I live in Los Angeles, im 35, Im not home bound but I am city bound, basically my safe zone has become 2 close by cities which is about a 10 mile radius, being stuck in traffic gives me extreme anxiety, living in LA is traffic city, everywhere you go its busy and full of traffic. So I am bound to my small non traffic safe cities, I own a business, I go to the gym. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety my whole life, sometimes better, sometimes worse. Recently my mom has been in and out of the hospital, she has congestive heart failure, and a girl I was really in love with left me because I would not convert to her religion, I am a orthodox christian, she was in one of the cult like religions and I refused to join because my research and evidence points to wrong teachings and cult like practices. Anyway so she left me out of nowhere and broke my heart, its been 3 weeks, with my Agoraphobia, depression, my moms situation and the girl I love leaving me, this has been the worst year of my life, I cant seem to be happy, waking up some mornings, I just feel like i wish I didnt have to deal with my thoughts, I cant get her and my issues out of my head, I dont drink or smoke. I just wanna feel like im not the only one, I guess it could always be worse.

Hi there, every now and then I will push myself, but always end up having extreme amounts of anxiety, im sure xanax would help but I dont want to be using xanax all the time, I might need to try it tho just to help maybe, im not sure anymore.