by firelamb67 » Fri Sep 11, 2015 2:37 am
If your T diagnosed you with BPD or knows you have it then he's well aware that extreme fear of abandonment is a really big issue. Don't be afraid to tell him what you need, what your fears are etc. You can even tell him you aren't/weren't sure to bring it up and explain why. He can help you work through it.
Whenever you don't feel safe during therapy, you should tell him. It's very important that he knows you feel unsafe, again it will help him help you work through these issues.
Ts who are willing to work with BPD clients know what they're doing. I'm BPD too and I was really mean and did some really horrible stuff to my T. I just knew she was going to dismiss me so I decided I'd help it along and get it over with. 2 1/2 years later she's still with me in spite of what I did. AND what's so sad is I still think she's going to do away with me. She always tells me she's not going anywhere. It's not as bad as it used to be but I get these moments of panic where I think she's done with me.
If you trust your T and have a strong theraputic relationship with him, everything will be ok. Don't be afraid to tell him about your needs and concerns.
DID, BPD, DP/DR
What lies behind us, and what lies before us, are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
-R.W. Emerson