by Oblomov » Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:33 pm
I'm so glad I found this topic. Finally, someone who can relate to my own problem instead of convincing me that I'm just having trouble to accept my sexuality! This information is really helpful to me.
I have the same problem, and like you, I'm convinced that the problem is chemical, not psychological. I know this because if I masturbate but stop before ejaculation, I have no problem at all. However, if I continue for just a second longer, the results are dramatic. Some of the worst days of my life were after relapses into masturbation. My personal approach to this problem is celibacy, but I've found some other methods that can reduce the burnout.
However, striking, and, I believe, very important is that I noticed this effect only after I started to abstain from sexuality, based on a theory I read at that time from Freud, that sexual energies can be sublimated. The first few times this happened, this effect was only moderate. However, once I had managed to abstain for several months, the effect of masturbation was so dramatic that my depressive symptoms doubled in intensity. I figured that as I became more and more used to the heightened energy caused by sublimation, the descent into normal energy levels came as such a letdown that I could no longer cope with it. The sudden loss of drive came with a sense of failure and disappointment.
Perhaps you could say that the problem is not sexuality at all. Perhaps you are merely depressed, and abstaining from sexuality helps you to keep a relatively normal level of motivation. Ejaculation causes a release of prolactin, a hormone which is meant to regulate sexual drive; it does this by decreasing the other sex hormones, which themselves increase overall drive through dopamine. Thus, prolactin reduces dopamine. In decreasing sexual desire, it decreases desire in general.
Prolactin remains elevated for as long as 14 days after orgasm, though, of course, there is usually such overlap that most people do not even notice the effect, anymore than they notice the effect of insulin after meals (which also decreases dopamine).
Some people are more sensitive to the effects of prolactin than others. If you have a lot of dopamine receptors and so depend a lot on dopamine, it will have more effect. For instance, I, as an artist, need a lot of dopamine. For other people, serotonin and noradrenaline, which are increased after masturbation or sex rather than decreased, are more important. And for some people, dopamine can actually be undesirable. For instance, people who are obsessive-compulsive have their symptoms worsened by higher dopamine levels. For some people, especially creative people, dopamine is so important that without it, they will get bored pretty quickly. For other people, especially people who wish nothing more than to live in a fixed routine, a too-high dopamine level will only be frustrating, because it will give them a need for something more. They cannot satisfy this need because all they want is a safe and comfortable life; thus, they get rid of this need by transferring it into sexuality.
There are ways to avoid a drop in dopamine after orgasm, however. One is to contract the pubococcygeus muscle, located in the perineum, when ejaculation is imminent. This will require some training, however, especially during sex. During masturbation, it can help pressing the prostrate. However, this way, your sexual desires can never be fully satisfied, and may only be tantalized by their incomplete satisfaction, so that you eventually end up ejaculating eventually. Using the technique of stopping ejaculation will require discipline.
Of course, a way to decrease the effects of prolactin may also be to masturbate or have sex only before going to sleep. The effects of prolactin are worst the first few hours after ejaculation. If you are asleep during that period, it doesn't really matter — in fact, the decrease in dopamine may actually help you sleep. People who use antipsychotics often do this, because the antihistaminergic effect makes them feel like a zombie.
Another possible way to avoid the burnout after orgasm is to find a sexual partner you love. Having sex with someone in an affectionate way, especially someone with whom you have a romantic relationship, will still release prolactin, but also other hormones which offset the effect of prolactin, such as oxytocin and vasopressin, vasopressin being released mostly in males and oxytocin mostly in females. Relaxed and tender foreplay will increase the release of these hormones in any case.
Oxytocin and vasopressin both increase dopamine and sex hormones, but decrease prolactin. Both hormones also increase serotonin, noradrenaline and endorphin, while decreasing glutamate. Oxytocin, aka "hug hormone," is known to decrease tolerance to endorphins, which is basically the problem I think you're having.
If you can't find anyone, and you are unable or unwilling to abstain from masturbating, try to do this, instead, in as affectionate a way as possible. If you can, you might even try to caress yourself in doing so. If you don't like masturbation, chances are that you do it almost as an obligation, and that your only thought as you do it is that you shouldn't be. At times, it might even get so far that you would do it out of spite rather than out of love for yourself, or that you would do it just to get rid of the fear that you might do it again.
At all times, try to let sexuality be something meditative. Relax. Focus your attention entirely on sense of touch. This will further increase the release of oxytocin and vasopressin.
A very similar phenomenon is found in heroin addiction. Heroin, like endorphin, stimulates the µ opioid receptors; in high dosages, this causes the release of prolactin, as during orgasm. You could say that most people are basically all endorphin junkies. The only reason why this problem isn't as dangerous as heroin addiction and remains relatively stable is that there is no way to increase the dosage.
I myself have chosen to solve this problem through abstinence. However, abstinence is the hardest road, and it's bound to cause severe anxieties at some point. I've experimented now and then with methods with which I had hoped to eliminate these anxieties without causing any loss of energy, but so far, without luck. I've recently given up my last experiment in trying to sublimate my sexuality in a more pure way, without the side effects of anxiety, and I think I'll just try to accept the anxiety and become completely celibate again. Through strong will, I've conquered most problems with remaining abstinent over long periods of time, even periods of nearly a year.
I will, however, try one last thing: in the past, fearing that I would relapse into masturbation, I repressed every sexual impulse I felt. I believe this is the cause of my anxieties, and made it so hard to control the increased energy caused by abstinence. From now on, whenever such impulse occurs, rather than quashing it I will now try instead to transfer it through hypnotic suggestion.
Something I forgot to add: I can assure you that, contrary to what was said in some of the posts above, loss of nutrients is certainly not the cause of the burnout. As you probably know yourself, the feelings of emptiness are fairly immediate after orgasm, contrary to what one would expect if it occurred because the body had to produce new sperm. Also, I never had the slightest problem when I have a nocturnal ejaculation. The first time I had a nocturnal ejaculation after a long period of abstinence, I was worried that I might experience the same effects as during waking ejaculation, but I was fine.