Am I Straight , Lesbian or Bisexual ?

Hi all First of all I should tell I am from India.I am 29 year old virgin . I never had a boy friend and I never kissed a guy .

Fist I will tell you general details about my self and why I have these doubts

I am Electrical Engineer & I hold a PhD in Engineering . In my family I have 3 brothers 2 younger than me and 1 elder brother. My mother is a teacher and my father is a engineer. I am very very open minded person but when It comes to myself I am not open minded . For example in my country living together is not approve But I see it as very normal and many my friends like that. I openly talk about it is normal but I am 99% sure I will not going to sleep with my boy friend before marriage.

I born as female but from my childhood I was never a girly girl.I always prefer to wear jeans and I rarely wear dresses ,sarees ,skirts or make up. My mother was so busy with her work and my 3 brothers or she though me as her 4th Son I do not remember she ever dress me and put makeup.
Thinking back I am not sure I prefer to wear pants and jeans because I did not own much dresses or becuase of my brothers influence.But some years of my life I used to only wear skirts .
However I am always a tomboy type and from childhood I knew I am not beautiful.

Why I am doubt Am I Lesbian ?

I was attracted to 4 girls in my life. I mean I was very excited and attracted to those

* when I was in grade 7 there is this beautiful girl and she was very popular she had boy friend that time and I knew I liked her lot . I never wanted to tell her about this or never expect any sexual thing but I wanted to be one of her best friend . This laste a few months then it disappear with time because from grade 8 we were in 2 different classes and was in 2 different friends circles .

* when I was grade 12 I again fall in love with this beautiful girl. she had boy friend and I helped her with her studies . I only want to talk with her and be a very good friend to her . But I always used to hang out with her . Then after studies she moved to her city and we lost contacts .Agian the attraction disappear

* when I was in university(Age 24 ) there is this beautiful girl she was the miss beauty queen in our university . I liked her lot .she already had boy friend that time but we became very good friends and used to chat in facebook a lot.I really liked chat with her and talked to her .i wanted to be a part of her life as best friend . she is still my good friend but then later I left country.

* I went left overseas for my higher education and in age of 26 I fall in love with this american girl. she was my roommate and very good friend but from the first moment I liked her. I always checked her facebook and message her. when we sit together in sofa and when she touched me I felt like current going through my body.I felt that several time . But again with time after 6 /8 months it disappear and now I can swear I do not have those feelings for her .


All of the 4 girls I fall in love they already had boy friends when I liked them and I already knew that . I can assure I never expect anything return but I did liked them thats all. But with time the attraction disappeared .Always it was one sided . May be that is why it disappear .Now I do not have those feelings for anyone of them . And the fact the common with all those 4 grils they are very very beautiful , stunning ,popular.... and everything I am not . Sometimes I am not sure why they are friends with me . I am like noboday.

So sometimes I am thinking
am I lesbian because I am attracted to girls ?
I liked them because I wanted to be like them (beautiful outgoing popular) ?

All these reason make me Lesbian ? Because I know I am attracted to girls .



Am I Straight?
I have many guy friends and with most of them I flirt . They are friendly flirting . In my life I never flirt with a girl .

I am attracted to guys but inside I am afraid because I know I am not beautiful and they will not attarct to me . I am sure I do like guys .

sometimes I have online sex with guys. Sometime in skype we have video chat but i never open my web cam but most of time they show themselves I do this with few guys and never with girls.

There was this guy who is handsome in my university and I did not know for what reason but he had feelings for me . I mean come on he is handsome and I am ugly what he sees in me . but he was one of my best friend and I did not had any attraction to him and I did not want to lost my best friend. but once we had online sex .I mean doing things with word but later I said it is first and final I cant do that anymore. I was totally turned on that time but I was afraid to lose him and I knew for sure I did not love him.

So I was attracted to guys as well


And I forgot to tell I masterbate sometimes and while doing that I watch porn and I like to watch lesbian porn. I liked to watch straight porn I like James dean and Manual feraro but more prefer Lesbian Porn .(I can never let myself to watch gay porn).

I know I like to chat with girls and I like to be around beautiful girls. may be because I am not beautiful I feel this way . I was never attracted to normal looking girls always it was Very Popular stunning girls .
And with my religion and with my parents my culture I know for sure I can never be a Lesbian but there is possibility. I do not know for sure .
In my all lifetime I love(or liked) 4 girls but I could not name any guy I went trough all the trouble to be with them and make friends with them because I am attracted to them.I mean I was attrated to guys but I never took any action because always all are out of my league .With girls It was easy to make friends with . But Now I am having cyber sex with guys(never with girls). There are lot of confusion for me

Am I Straight , Lesbian or Since I am attracted to both girls and Guys is it make me bisexual ?

why limmit yourself

Well, you say you are attracted to both sexes, so I'd say you are bisexual. The attraction to both genders might be different from one another. You could feel more sexual towards men, but more romantic towards women.