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Sometimes I want a penis

Postby FreeElk » Wed Jan 11, 2017 6:13 pm

Phew, getting that out in the subject of the post means it is out at least.

Erm...so I'm not really sure what else to say. I'm a girl, I feel alright about that (not entirely sure if anything makes me identify as a particular gender or anything) but I've had this fantasy that has been bothering me a little for a few years now. Just sometimes I want to feel what guys feel...be able to...I don't know, I'll try not to be too graphic in my first post.

I just want to know how weird this is.

No one talks about it, I've had friends mention they tried a bit of bondage or some other fetishes...but I just feel like this is something I've never heard anyone else get of their chest. I just wanted to get it off my chest and if anyone else has felt the same for them to know they aren't alone.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby Screwed_Up » Wed Jan 11, 2017 11:33 pm

I think it's probably more common than you think. When I was in college in one of my classes we learned a relaxation technique in that we imagined ourselves a member of the opposite sex. So there is nothing abnormal about it. I also think it's probably fairly common to wonder what it feels like to be the opposite sex. Of course there's the whole Freudian penis envy idea which I don't necessarily buy into.

Probably most people don't want to admit or talk about it. For what its worth sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have breasts and a vagina (I'm a guy BTW). I wouldn't worry too much about it or be embarassed about it.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby FreeElk » Thu Jan 12, 2017 11:22 am

Screwed_Up wrote:For what its worth sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have breasts and a vagina (I'm a guy BTW).


Thanks for sharing :). Do you fantasise about it or just wonder about it?

I just feel like I have gone past wondering. It isn't a constant thing or the only thing that turns me on but it is a fantasy I find myself coming back to. I don't really know why it is (perhaps some sort of desire for being in charge) but my mind always finds that one to come back to.

Do your wonderings ever stretch as far as thinking of being the girl in sex? (Sorry if this is personal, if you don't want to talk about it you don't have to reply, I know I wouldn't have been ready until recently).
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby Screwed_Up » Thu Jan 12, 2017 11:30 pm

FreeElk wrote:
Screwed_Up wrote:For what its worth sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have breasts and a vagina (I'm a guy BTW).


Thanks for sharing :). Do you fantasise about it or just wonder about it?

I just feel like I have gone past wondering. It isn't a constant thing or the only thing that turns me on but it is a fantasy I find myself coming back to. I don't really know why it is (perhaps some sort of desire for being in charge) but my mind always finds that one to come back to.

Do your wonderings ever stretch as far as thinking of being the girl in sex? (Sorry if this is personal, if you don't want to talk about it you don't have to reply, I know I wouldn't have been ready until recently).


I fantasize about it. But like you, it's not my only fantasy and not something I dwell on too much. A lot of people have all kinds of fantasies that many might find bizarre. I think the fantasy of being a member of the opposite sex is actual pretty vanilla.

In your case it might have something to do with you desiring to be in charge as you've said. The phallic symbol is seen as a symbol of power in many cultures. For whatever the reason though, it's probably seen by society as more acceptable for women to fantasize about being in the men's role then vice versa. We can't control our fantasies. If they're only fantasies and not hurting anyone there is absolutely nothing wrong. I'm sure we all have fantasies we would never admit to. And women wearing strap ons during sex is actually not that out there either. I would find it a turn on if I found a partner who wanted to play using one :lol:

Yes, my wonderings go beyond just wonderings and into actual fantasy of being the girl in sex. I fantasies sometimes go beyond just being the girl and getting laid (pardon my french) but also sometimes I fantasize about getting pregnant. Ok how's that for strange? :oops:
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby FreeElk » Fri Jan 13, 2017 10:21 am

Screwed_Up wrote:I think the fantasy of being a member of the opposite sex is actual pretty vanilla.

I guess whether something seems vanilla or not depends on a person's exposure to it. Using the ice-cream analogy: if one family always had chocolate ice-cream the vanilla flavour wouldn't be 'vanilla' to them. I suppose I'm just less exposed to people of the same mindset. I've only recently been using the internet to talk about my sexuality in any way and on the internet you can find a group of people interested in anything. My groups of friends, however, have never really seen it as a norm in anyway.

Screwed_Up wrote:The phallic symbol is seen as a symbol of power in many cultures. For whatever the reason though, it's probably seen by society as more acceptable for women to fantasize about being in the men's role then vice versa.

I think being the one receiving the penetration is a more vulnerable position, the penis is a means to that end, perhaps. I do think there is an unfair advantage for women to explore their sexuality in some ways...but then in others its like if you do anything particularly kinky or often you're a slut. My area of work is fairly male dominated, I'm always careful about how I act there to try to make them see me as an equal.

Screwed_Up wrote: women wearing strap ons during sex is actually not that out there either. I would find it a turn on if I found a partner who wanted to play using one :lol:

I think I would like to try this...I'm just not entirely sure how to broach the subject with my boyfriend but I think it is the closest I'm going to get to actually having one.

Screwed_Up wrote:Sometimes I fantasize about getting pregnant. Ok how's that for strange? :oops:

Sure in general it isn't normal. I have all the necessary equipment and I don't fantasise about being pregnant but then maybe that is why...it could be a little too close to a real worry. I don't think it is too strange though.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby Screwed_Up » Sat Jan 14, 2017 3:02 pm

FreeElk wrote:I guess whether something seems vanilla or not depends on a person's exposure to it. Using the ice-cream analogy: if one family always had chocolate ice-cream the vanilla flavour wouldn't be 'vanilla' to them. I suppose I'm just less exposed to people of the same mindset. I've only recently been using the internet to talk about my sexuality in any way and on the internet you can find a group of people interested in anything. My groups of friends, however, have never really seen it as a norm in anyway.


I guess you could look at it that way. It's all relative. After you talk about it for awhile (even online) it will easily become the norm.

FreeElk wrote:I think being the one receiving the penetration is a more vulnerable position, the penis is a means to that end, perhaps. I do think there is an unfair advantage for women to explore their sexuality in some ways...but then in others its like if you do anything particularly kinky or often you're a slut. My area of work is fairly male dominated, I'm always careful about how I act there to try to make them see me as an equal.


I know t's unfair and a double standard. But not everyone sees women that way.

FreeElk wrote:
I think I would like to try this...I'm just not entirely sure how to broach the subject with my boyfriend but I think it is the closest I'm going to get to actually having one.


You boyfriend might be interested in it, you never know. Maybe try casually bringing it up in a general way or joking about it to see his reaction. Even if he's not into it, you might find a partner in the future who is.

FreeElk wrote:Sure in general it isn't normal. I have all the necessary equipment and I don't fantasise about being pregnant but then maybe that is why...it could be a little too close to a real worry. I don't think it is too strange though.



Thanks I think it's because I don't have the necessary equipment. Kind of like being curious about something that could never really happen. I don't know, it's still kinda embarassing to me.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby FreeElk » Sun Jan 15, 2017 12:49 pm

I think I'm just worried about losing anyone for saying it. It isn't something I would come out with to introduce myself when starting a relationship
"Hi, nice to meet you, I'm Robin and might I ask: how do you feel about pegging?"
....but at what time in the relationship is it fine? I feel like it is a pretty big turn off for anyone who isn't into it.

I suppose it is the same with any fetish.

I don't think you should be embarrassed, you might find a girl who is into that. One thing the internet teaches is that if you can think of the roleplay you can find the roleplay partner.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby Screwed_Up » Sun Jan 15, 2017 4:51 pm

I think it depends on the relationship. If you feel like they might be open to it then I would test the waters before coming right out and saying it. If someone really cares about you and they don't share a fetish I highly doubt you would lose them. Also, a healthy relationship must be based on more than just shared fetishes so I don't think you have much to worry over. I'm assuming it's not so important to you that whoever you're with, it must be practiced with them? In my (few) past relationships I was too embarassed to talk about my fetishes and turns on so I never got to practice them. It wasn't a big deal.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby FreeElk » Wed Jan 18, 2017 4:57 pm

Screwed_Up wrote:I think it depends on the relationship. If you feel like they might be open to it then I would test the waters before coming right out and saying it. If someone really cares about you and they don't share a fetish I highly doubt you would lose them.


I talked with my boyfriend about it, he seemed okay with it as a concept in general but that made me think proposing we try something like that was alright, I might have over stepped the mark. Things are a little awkward sometimes now. I'm sure we will get over it but I don't think it is going to happen.

Some fantasies are meant to stay as such I suppose.
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Re: Sometimes I want a penis

Postby 5mindsofpooh » Tue Feb 28, 2017 11:23 pm

I didn't think I could put it into words what I was going through until I read this post.
I was raped/molested at 3yrs. old for two years never told about what should or shouldn't be touched. I was never scared not guilty not afraid because of the way it was presented. I was well liked by this make. I was a young girl able to find myall pornography in my family home. Curiosity! Bring left alone for long periods of time(6hrs a day) during that period of time.
Since then I would talk to myself pretending I was the make in my made up senerios and act out having sex. Yes, even at the age of six up to today even during my real relationships I would do this as soon as I was alone. It's more intense now and I never participate as myself-a female only as the make. I, too, feel I play the make role because I want to control the situations. I can't get away from this.
I was glad to find this post but I feel bad for those who go through this also.
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