Only serious replies please!!!!!!
I have trawled the internet and forums for quite a while trying to find decent, honest, transparent advice on this topic, with little luck so im hoping posting something might furnish some advice.
From a very young age I have been sexually attracted to mother, from the usual masturbating with her panties and bra's to watching her sunbathe from inside the house and masturbating. It was never an uncontrolable urge so I never gave it much thought or acted upon it. She had me when she was young, 18. I am now 37, she is 55.
Just so you have all the info, I am a reasonably good looking guy and have no problem with attracting woman or finding sexual partners, I have had many long term loving relationships. I have no anti social disorders or mental illness, i consider myself rather "normal". I do have a ridiculously high sex drive. I currently live abroad to my mother so I dont even see her that often but I still find myself on occasion thinking about her when I masturbate. Some forums say that after you masturbated the urge should be gone and you should be appaled by thought, this is not the case at all. I have thought and over analysed this for quite some time and have decided that when I go back home to visit my friends and family in a few months I am going to act upon this desire or make her aware of it.
Please I really do not want to hear people say how immoral or wrong it is, I understand all the social and psychology views on this subject and and really not interested in those views. I am wanting to hear if anyone has any advice on the best way to go about this, as in just come right out and tell her??? should i let her catch me masturbating?? should i leave my laptop open and on a search of "wanting to make love to my mother"?? should i get into bed with her naked and embrace her??? Im not asking people to condone this at all and I understand it could and most probably will go horribly wrong, but there is also a slight chance it wont. I just want views from people that might have thoughts of ways to approach this in as calm a way as possible.
I look forwrd to hearing your replies.....