Hi. Just call me Peyton. I have a strong pre-occupation, you might even call it an obsession. I have this really strong affinity for lap sitting. Specifically, i think and fantasize about girls, (young women of legal age and older, not children) sitting on my lap. For as long as i can remember, i've had this particular fetish. It started in high school. Flirty girls would sometimes sit on my lap cause they thought it was fun to titillate guys. It carried on into adult hood. with various girlfriends i would have, and even platonic female "buddies". Some way or another, i would find a way to have them sit on my lap. It got really intense when i began to attend Halloween parties, and the practice began to involve photos. I'd go to Halloween parties, chat up any lady in a sexy costume, have a drink with her, and go into my spiel about" wow, you look really sexy, can i take a picture with you?" Then, i'd find someone to work the camera, i'd sit down, have the girl sit on my lap, and snap! one click later, another photo for what was starting to become a rather large collection.
My question is this: Am i normal? Or do i need counseling? Because it's just that i can't seem to get the act of lapsitting off my mind sometimes. Most guys, i presume, usually think about having sex with a sexy woman they see. For me, it's not even about sex, it's just about "i'd love to get her to sit on my lap," and sometimes even thinking about being able to capture it on film; one more picture of a sexy woman sitting on my lap.
I'm recently divorced, and now more then ever, with no spouse to be faithful to, this predilection has become stronger then ever. Please understand: I'm not a "letch" or "creeper". I don't accost women who dont even know me out of the blue to do this. If i meet them at a social function or through a mutual friend, and feel that they'd go along with me and not be offended, then i might engage them on this. But i don't force myself on anyone nor do i harrass anyone either.
But it's just that this is all i seem to think about sometimes. i peruse my picture collection on my hard drive with these kinds of images i've collected, sometimes for hours on end. i don't understand why, of all things sexual, a girl sitting on my lap is the one thing above all others that turns me on like nothing else ever has.
I don't know if anyone has ever had these feelings that i'm having. i don't know if this is normal or abnormal. i'd just really like some inisght and possibly answers from anyone who can analyze this situation going on with me.