anthro wrote:I am a 23 year old white male, I used to watch a lot of ordinary white men/white women porn. But the past 6 months I constantly fantasize and watch only black men/white women porn. And it’s the only time when I look at the guys big dick and feel jealous of his sexual prowess, and how the white women enjoys it. I feel extremely embarrassed of this fantasy and hide it from everyone. Its the only time when fascinated with the big black penis, but don’t desire a relationship with a man. What is really causing this and why, is it a fetish. I still am extremely attracted to women, and love everything about women, but its when a see black men, blonde women porn that I cannot control myself. But am I bi-sexual? bi-curious? What causes this attraction/fascination of a large black penis? Is this strange?
First, i don`t think it is strange. In porn there seems to be a niche for everything, and everything that is created reaches a group of people who are attracted to it.
In a person`s development sexuality is something very personal/individual and most of all something we have to explore and find out about much rather than something we consciously choose or define - no matter what it is. So, this fantasy of yours is nothing to be embarrassed of, and believe me, there are plenty of men with this sort of favor or "addiction".
But however many people are into something, the reasons why can be quite different. To answer your question about being bi-curious/bi-sexual there is too less information in your posting for an educated answer. But from what i read / you write, you are obviously into women.
You say, you look at the guys big dick and feel jealous of his sexual prowess, and
how the white women enjoy it
Porn and real life are two completely different things (also see Darrin
`s post). First, not every black guy has a big dick. In porn business there seems to be a special affinity to size, either of a woman`s breast or a man`s penis. The performers are especially casted to meet these (producer`s) needs. The same goes for stamina. Also, scenes are cut in the post-production process, so that sometimes performers seem to last longer than they actually do. And female performers who look like they are enjoying a shoot are preferred, no matter if they actually do or not.
After having this said from a more rational view, it is time to confess my own "addiction" for a similar kind of porn (black men / woman), being a white man myself.
Same as you, i found out about my preference by watching different types of porn at first and then turning to what i enjoy the most. That was many years ago and i never regreted it. i truly love it and accepted that i do right from the start. i will always prefer watching black men with a white or Asian woman or "interracial" lesbian scenes over every other type of porn. i tried to figure out why i like it that much and came to some conclusions, as follows...Penis size.
i could explain "how penis size matters and why it really doesn`t" but that would be another topic. i found out i am heterosexual and that the reason i like to see a woman with one or more big-dicked guy(s) with good stamina is that i feel a woman deserves to be pleasured and taken care of in the best possible way. And a bigger penis (up to some extent) seems to be more suitable to achieve this goal.Black men on white/Asian woman "interracial" sex.
The key is definitely skin contrast. It is more graphic/visual to watch people with different skin colors play. Especially, when the contrast is very high, like very dark skin against very pale skin. This is even more obvious when watching a low resolution / low definition tube porn clip, where it is sometimes even hard to recognize where one body ends and the other begins, when the performers` skin tone is similar.
So, why then not white-men-on-black-woman porn? There are two reasons: First, the most obvious and unfakable(!) response a woman gives when she is sexually aroused is the swelling of her clitoris (i mean the interior part, not the tip) which leads to a swollen area around the vaginal entrance. This change is easier to see on a white woman as it also leads to a soft reddish tone in this area, a black woman doesn`t show. Also a penis (on a white man) when erect and aroused usually takes on a darker skin tone. This is harder recognizable when white men "play" with a black woman as opposed to a white woman, because of the harsher lighting in an "interracial" scene where the penis still looks pale. While pale skin on a woman is commonly considered a symbol of beauty (according to many of current-time fashion magazines), a pale penis IMO has a somewhat illish look, especially when aroused.
These are my own (main) two reasons for my preference for black men (or woman) on white woman "interracial" porn, especially when the guys are well-endowed. Maybe you can relate with this and it helps you find out about your own reasons.
But as i said before, everyone has their own reasons, which may also include a conscious or unconscious mindset involving "racial" or sexual stereotypes, a submissive nature, or longing for some sort of "punishment" for something you seem to achieve less than others in a particular (or more than one) field that makes you reflect this feeling of inferiority onto your sexuality? (Also see winginitx
`s post about "self-image" and "self-worth".)
i hope this was helpful