Masterbation gone overboard

Mysterbation addiction has gotten so out of hand that I have become shameless, I love masterbating in my clothes rubbing myself on the bed as the orgasm is close to having real sex, my family knows about this, I am polluting bedsheets etc. all the time, my mum and maid who does the laundry knows about this and I am in my late 30's, its just become too much, basically I am repressing something I am gay and out of guilt of having sex with men or risky sex, I may have resorted to accepting masterbation as an alternative.

Masterbating excessivley over the past few months has definitely caused my hair to thin and fall out, although I had hair problems since my teens, this sudden change I can only attribute to masterbation gone overboard.

I masterbate so many times in a day that I lose count, and of late I have noticed that the area right behind my scrotum from where the orgasmic sensation comes has suddenly vanished, instead of a knot there I now have a depression with two folds of skin around it, on touching it feels like lips around a mouth, can anyone tell me if they have experienced this.

when I started masterbationg my orgasm would come from the shaft of the penis mainly from under the area behind the penis head, excessive masterbation has made the nerves quiet numb so my orgasm has moved to the area behind the scrotum, is this normal? please do let me know.

Hi,

Im not going to even attempt to answer your last question, because that's something that your doctor can only answer. You should try to become more controlled over this though, and realise one thing: You're in your thirties and live in someone else's house. as such, you should try - for your parents' sake - to get this under control and start to become more responsible for your actions. I'm sure that the maid - and your parents - find your behaviour rather repulsive, right? There's nothing wrong with masturbation, but you're openly doing it in their house and they're probably too nice a bunch of people to say anything. While saying all of this, I believe that there's lots that you aren't tell us. I mean, I don't tthink that your sole problem is masturbation. What else has been happening in your life? You had a rough past, right?

Actually I am confused because when I look at my past I had everything, is just that I was suppressing soemthing that made me lose all the opportunities because all my energies were going in hiding myslef, like I said in another forum i suspect sexual abuse perhaps by more than one person, just a few days back I had a weird dream of a very close uncle abusing kids, I dont know this not the uncle whom I mentioned triggers of things in me, this is some one else.

Other than that I used to be girlish as kid so I was taunted alot, to top it off I was extremely sensitive and bit creative, totally not into school or formal education, I have been fascinated with sex since childhood and especailly by very masculine guys, for a long time I kind of liked my girlish side and that I coudl attract guys with it, but thsi was till my early 20's, then I started feeling this is not right and started craving being like normal men.

Maybe this confusion of not being able to be all man is whats bothering me.

Hmmm, you see? - There is some more there that you can obviously feel comfortable talking about. I disagree though, in that you 'have to' be 'all man'. Why can't you just be a person? You don't have to be that macho type of guy who - quite frankly - hurts women and only thinks about himself. You can be a nice guy who does'nt think that he's God's gift to women, etc., etc. If you do think this, by the way, then I suggest that you change!