I am in a very positive and supportive relationship with an amazing sexy woman and I'm addicted to porn.
My addiction to pornography in general has grown over the years. I managed to get myself off it for a few months but the other day I was browsing the internet and I accidentally discovered Adult Web cams. This is something I never knew about before and when I checked it out, I couldn't believe it was real. Since that day, I check to see what girls are online almost everyday. I don't even masturbate to it. I just go from live webcam to live webcam for hours on end. It's like watching a gerbil in a cage. They can't see me, but I can watch them. When I first discovered it I signed up, and had a "private session" with one of the girls that I liked a lot based on the fact that she looked almost exactly like cameron diaz. She's probably some poor girl from Russia. I had one private session with her then I cancelled my account immediately. I had never done anything like this before, and it felt a lot like cheating. i mean, there's and actual girl on the other side who I was writing back and forth to. And then she took her clothes off and masturbated while I masturbated. I feel so guilty. Since then, I drop by daily to see if she is there. And if she is I just watch her for hours. If she is not there, I go from live girl to live girl and just watch them. It's interferring with my relationship. I mean, I have a crush on a Russian webcam girl and I'm in a relationship?! WTF is wrong with me? Its crossing into reality for me. I find myself thinking about her when I'm walking down the street. I need to stop, and I've made a promise to myself that I would a week ago, and I broke that promise to myself once already.