I decided to join this because my therapist thought it might be a good idea. Well here's my story-I recently found out I was adopted by my aunt and raised thinking my twin died as a baby when in reality she was alive and my "cousin". Now I haven't seen my "cousin" since I was a child. We were both sexually abused by a family member and then when we were about 11 or 12 she moved away after the trial and I never saw "Abby" again until the last few years. When we were in our late 20's we found each other again. This is where I am having problems. We have found ourselves sexually attracted to eachother and have acted out those feelings I'm so ashamed to admit. This always happens with the use of alcohol. She's married and I'm in a relationship. Abby's husband knows and thinks we are both sick in the head and this has caused so many problems. He throws it in her face that we are too close and blames us that we both have bipolar and f***up childhoods. I don't know what to do and I'm so confused.
-- Thu Aug 25, 2011 2:07 am --
and also forgot to mention that when I try to tell her no she tries to make me feel as if its my fault and she wants to kill herself or selfharm because she says to me"without you I am dead and empty" and then I feel bad and do what she wants. This is not all she tells me. It usually starts with us having drinks and talking about when we were kids and what happened. And sometimes she does stuff that hurts me. So I love her but I don't know what to do because she is all I have literally.