Incest Pornography

So, I am new to this board. I have an insatiable desire to watch pornography related to incest themes, including pornography involving real siblings, parents, twin sisters etc., or fantasy porn involving these kind of characters (like the movie Taboo).

I have no idea why I am only interested in this kind of stuff. I don't have any specific memories of being abused as a child, but I cannot rule it out. No other type of pornography can stimulate me. Does this mean I was molested as a child??

Thirty-three views and no response. How unreasonable! LimeyLite, it may be possible you were abused as a child, if you believe so then you might want to recieve professional help to discover it. You might be able to find missing memories on your own, possibly.

As for your desire to watch incest pornography, again, there may be a connection yet not necessarily. People all have things they may respond to sexaully, even unrelated to what they have experienced or feel. Have you fantasized about it before watching those kind of material? Your addiction deserves treatment either way, dear. It can destroy you all on it's own. Find the willingness to face your unsure past and addiction and find the help you deserve. Be sure to keep posting, tough! It can be therapeutic in itself. With love.

-Nanashi-

Since you said abuse could not be ruled out, tell us more about your past and why you think so.

-Joshua-

Thanks for your post!

I have been in weekly psychotherapy sessions for almost 10 years now, and have still been unable to access any specific memories of childhood sexual abuse. I seem to have very vague recollections about sexual contact with my Mother at an early age, but I have no concrete memories to access.

In any event, my obsession with incest pornography has led to some problems in my life. I almost lost my job on Wall Street about 5 years ago when the IT department found a cache of incest porn on my work computer. I was able to keep my job, but I am not sure I ever regained credibility with my boss.

Has anyone found any help in hypnosis in accessing repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse?

(I should mention that I did find some comfort in taking Effexor which reduces my anxiety level, and allows me to cope better with the porn addiction and with the stresses of my daily life)

Your job is a stress magnet! Perhaps taking something more natural would be better since you could become dependent on the Effexor. I do not know too much of psychotherapy but you should be cautious of suggested implications. Have you tried other methods before?

Hypnosis leaves you open to suggestion again, which I am not sure about, personally. I can look up the information for you if you have not already. Many have rediscovered lost memories through therapy exercises on a lesser scale than what you are under I believe. Perhaps you could start there since you have not had any results.

Hopefully, you do not have memories because nothing occurred but, you have a faint memory of an event so, you have that to go on. Let me know if any of my suggestions are practicle to you or helpful.

-Nanashi-

You should speak to benedictus53 about psychotherapy since he has undergone it as well. He can give you his personal experience to help you develop in your search.

-Nanashi-