hey Jasmin...yeah I know, the thing was I knew at the time too, when your a kid your so vunrable to your parents, I think they both have had similar things happen to them, probably more so...so Im not mad at them...I think they were brought into the behaviour by their own upbringing as I notice similarities within their siblings and the relationships they have with their kids. Thanks you for your support, its means alot to me..
My brother is pretty messed up, he has a mad addiction to porn which Im sure must leave him feeling really empty as it objectifies women and dissconnects them from them having souls..I dont really know how to bring the subject up to him...He might deny it to himself, then tell my parents that Im crazy...all which will be alot of stress for me. Im just weighing up how I can do it in a way that doesnt make him feel like Im exposing him to his fears..also the same for my cousins.
I know my parents have issues, and its not right that they incorporated us in their drama, they do love us but there messed up emotionaly Im sure from having their boundaries crosses..I was quizzing my dad one day about pedos and he was like their sick...he got really emotinal, and said you dont know what they do to kids in churches. The amount of personal pain that it brought out in him made me suspicious that he had been sexually abused by a teacher or something, and he also told me that he had been his mothers 'favourite' so Im sure that he had been subjected to abuse as a child.
My mum is hystrionic personality type, and the way she acts to her dad is as if some type of boundaries were crossed there..
So Im not buggin too bad, as long as I understand why things happen, and I know that they were 'unconscious' in their actions I can undertand and forgive..