Hi,
I will try to keep this short, unlike my previous posts. I don't think anybody would be able to help me, but I have to get this out of my chest.
I'm a 17 year old male from Bangladesh (located in Asia).
I'm still a student, unemployed, supposed to graduate the 10th grade this year.
My mom is horribly emotionally abusive; had been this way since I was like 5 or so - can't remember too well.
I'm leaving out the emotional abuse here and instead focus on her obsession with my looks and cleanliness; which had led to her watching me bath almost every day.
It had started several months ago; can't be sure about how many. On that day, I didn't bath properly; just splashed some water on my body and left the bathroom. I believe I was going through a period of depression; cleaning myself properly was one of the last things I could care about.
Well, she noticed I didn't bath properly - so she made me bath in front of her, probably while verbally harassing me.
It has been that way since.
She watches me bath, harshly gives me bathing instructions, get mad for no reason, curses me because I am a grown up yet she has to ensure I bath properly; while I am clad in a towel covering my nether region.
She has a serious obsession with my looks. She makes me shave my facial hairs, decides what hairstyle to wear, makes me brush three times a day...
Well, she also makes sure I shave my underarm hair pubic and pubic hair. Guess what? I have to show her.
I can't really seem to sort it all out in my head, so my writing is disorganized.
Well, I can't really figure out how to write what I feel like here, so I guesss that's all for now.
I want to escape this hell, but I have no chance of doing so...
(Please check out my other threads if you want to learn more about my family and my past/present. Thank you so much for your time.)