repressed memory of sexual abuse surfacing

Greetings, I've been in therapy for the last 7 years because of an abusive, narcissistic father. I come from a big, Greek family, and It took me a long time to see that my parents , particularly my father (mom just watched the abuse and did nothing) were abusive, unloving people. Within the last month, thru EMDR, a memory of sexual abuse is starting to emerge. It turns out, that at the age of 7, the memory I have of myself abusing my barbie is not exactly correct. It turns out that the barbie is actually me being abused. The memory is vague but when it emerges, I panic. So much so that the memory goes back into hiding. Does anyone have experience with the emergence of repressed memories? I would love to know more about what you went thru. Right now I go thru body memories where I feel incredibly guilty, ashamed, really terrible - but there is still no narrative. I also have a great deal of anger towards both of my parents. Any thoughts or advice on this front would be greatly appreciated.

I will just say that I can relate. I don't have any terrible memories of sexual abuse but I have a lot of body memories and panic and anxiety and depression and lots of other mental health issues. I believe they all stem from my abuse history. I'm wondering if there's stuff that I don't remember. I too have the severe body memories. I also have no narrative. Feel free to message me. You're not alone. You are brave for sharing and reaching out. All the support to you.

One technique that worked for me was to "write letters to X". And by that I mean literally sit down with pen and paper or computer and write a dialog where it is you and "other". It can be any "other" you want, in this case, your repressed memory. In my case I was surprised at what popped out, seemingly out of nowhere, but it is the unconscious being allowed to "speak" through the exercise of writing.