First, I want to apologize to everyone on this site. I responded to two postings trying to be supportive and encouraging- but I am a HYPOCRITE. I am no-one to try and offer hope to others.
I have almost completely lost my ability to love. This has been creeping up on me. I am lucky to have a few friends in this world who care about me, and when they tell me they love me, I respond in kind. It is just a LIE. I just don't feel it anymore. I tell the woman I am trying to date that I love her, but I don't have those feelings inside. (P.S. She is WONDERFUL.)
Now I am starting to lose feelings of love for my two cats. (I still take care of them.)
This is frightening.
The only thing keeping me going right now is thinking about my next dose of Klonapin, and burning myself over and over.
41 going on 12.