Completely lost

Need advice...I am married with two boys but cant seem to find any happiness in anything. I have cheated multiple times and really believe that it is mainly due to severe self esteem issues. Feel like I need to be constantly validated and always have to prove myself. Dont feel like my wants/needs are healthy and I usually just swallow them so that I dont create any confusion. Please help me.

Surprisingly, I found the right combination of anti-depressants worked well regarding my self-esteem issues.