Alienation and paranoia or something...

Besides the normal feelings you get in a group like: I don't belong here, I can't relate to anything, these are also humans?. I wanted to pull up little oddities and details.
When I look at pictures of people looking directly at the camera(you) it kinda creeps me out, but it gets extremely palpable when I know these people and EVEN WORSE if they are smiling and touching someone else. It just feels weird and creepy looking at those pictures. Do they know I'm thinking about them and examining them when they're not around? Are they going to know I did this? Are they going to confront me and talk about how I'm looking at and thinking about them without their consent like some obsessed weirdo? NO MAN! Someone was just showing me pictures or I happened to click on them.
Theres's just something disturbing about seeing people in such a personal/intimate state that has nothing to do with you and now your getting firsthand eye-witness. And happiness is weird.
Secondly, I can't watch porn where I can see anyones face and if they are showcasing the expressions made by them I can't stand it. In fact, I can't watch porn with actual people in it, for the most part, because I can relate that back to actual people with thoughts and feelings that I either Hate or can't understand. And it usually comes back to the fact that I'm watching someone in a intimate state and that makes me feel weird/creepy. I'm stuck with drawings and a few videos where nothing above the abdomen is shown.
ANYHOO... got anything similar or your own versions?

Effusive wrote:ANYHOO... got anything similar or your own versions?

Hm, not really. Can't think of anything of the sort, right now at least. Though it would be odd if I really didn't have any comparable oddities. There must be some... Probably already mentioned in some other post out there.

I'll get back to you when something comes to mind.

Somewhat related.. I can't stand watching people kiss on tv or anything. It grosses me out. I think to myself that this should be a private thing. Don't display your tongue for the whole world to see. Can it be the 50's again? T_T Any time in movies when characters get into bed with each other, I just fast forwarded that part. If I missed any dialog, too bad.

Wow, yes.

Sometimes I begin thinking of another person. Someone I know for some reason; maybe I see them everyday at work, maybe I chat with them online. I start thinking of how things are for that person, trying to see the world from their head. I begin imagining their thoughts, how their arms look from that angle..it isn't too hard. Then I feel like I really am inside of their head, that I'm actually experiencing what they are at that moment. I've traveled from my body into their head. That is when I begin to worry that they can sense me. It feels very odd being so good at imagining being in their head, I can't tell if I'm imagining it or really inside of their mind...but if I'm good enough at predicting their mind does it really matter if I've traveled through astral projection or not?

Pictures sometimes get me doing this too, like with you. I'll stare at a persons picture and begin imagining being inside their head, the way their body looks from their angle, how the others in the photo look from that person's eyes, imagine what they were thinking...and it happens again. I feel I'm inside of their head, and again I worry they can sense me and worry that I've actually beamed into their mind at the moment in time of the picture.

Lately I've worried that if I think too much about a person that they will be allowed access into my mind. That they will be able to read my thoughts and know I've thought about them. And if I think about them while masturbating that it automatically lets them see inside my head. When I begin thinking of a person and begin getting the feeling they will be allowed access in my head I try and stop thinking of them right away, try and make my mind blank. This has only been the last few months and its rather frustrating not believing your thoughts are private. However I think this "belief" has already played out and is on the decline.

Chronostasis wrote:Pictures sometimes get me doing this too, like with you. I'll stare at a persons picture and begin imagining being inside their head

Sometimes I look at pictures and I see an independent being. I imagine what that being must be thinking, and I emotionally react (facial expression and all) to their fictional attitudes. I have to restrain myself from talking to them out loud. This happens with my avatars. I keep staring at them. At some point I start to identify more with that image than with my own. Pictures of myself are no different from pictures of other people. Myself in the mirror... just another picture.

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Chronostasis wrote:Pictures sometimes get me doing this too, like with you. I'll stare at a persons picture and begin imagining being inside their head

Sometimes I look at pictures and I see an independent being. I imagine what that being must be thinking, and I emotionally react (facial expression and all) to their fictional attitudes. I have to restrain myself from talking to them out loud. This happens with my avatars. I keep staring at them. At some point I start to identify more with that image than with my own. Pictures of myself are no different from pictures of other people. Myself in the mirror... just another picture.

Yes this can happen to me. Although I'm drawn in to doing it. I often do this for other inanimate objects though, particularly little object that are the size of a pebble and look like a person or animal. Sometimes I would even take pieces of food and sculpt them to look like something alive. Then they were something real to me, I could feel their personality. I have a small collection of tiny life looking objects. Nothing too realistic looking though. For example I have a little sanrio dog, a tiny little asian cartoon girl, a little rock bear... among other things. I have to be careful. If I spend too much time looking at them they become real to me. Sometimes when I'm feeling weird I will carry a few of them around with me, holding them in my hands or keeping them in my pockets.

A lot of times when it happens it upsets me and I have to "kill" the object. That is why I just try to avoid "spending time" with the objects. I keep them on a shelf and occasionally look at them, but I avoid thinking about them.

I saw Jesus on my bath towel yesterday

Chronostasis wrote:For example I have a little sanrio dog, a tiny little asian cartoon girl, a little rock bear... among other things.

Cool!

I figure that's pretty much the way good-luck-charm statuettes, voodoo dolls and etc. first appeared.

I don't like being taken in picture, nor do I like looking at others in picture. I flee picture taking when I can.

doritocakes wrote:I can't stand watching people kiss on tv or anything.

OneRinger wrote:I don't like being taken in picture, nor do I like looking at others in picture. I flee picture taking when I can.

me 2, or something like that