I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia less than two months ago after years of severe paranoia and hallucinations, for years they diagnosed me with so many things that I lost count but it all led to Schizophrenia in the end. I'm really concerned about something, I always heard this voice telling me what to do, at first they were fairly simple taks and this was diagnosed as OCD, in the past few months it got worse though, the voices are telling me to harm certain people. I normally get paranoid about one person at a time, I always think they have plans to hurt me or kill me and I freak out, this time I got paranoid by a group of people that I don't even know, they work in this office close to my house and all I can think is to go there and do something crazy, the voices are telling me it's either me or them, kill or get killed and it has to be tomorrow, I really don't know what to do. I'm taking my meds and following the orders given by my psychiatrist but I seem to be getting worse, I would call her but she's on vacation and I'm too afraid to go to the hospital and end up arrested or something, I have the whole thing planned out inside my head, I've been able to " turn off " the voices for a little bit by taking massive amounts of Ativan, a big no no since I've struggled with benzo addiction in the past, it's the only thing that works for a while though, my brain gets so numb that I pay no attention to what the voices say. I'm really terrified, right now I'm not hallucinating but I really lose control once it starts, I become someone else and I'm afraid of what might happen once what's left of me disappears. What should I do?