Enter the void wrote:There´s isn´t anything I want to do/achieve.
Except writing a novel and get enough money to withdraw from the world.
It seems to me that your goal is getting the money, and the novel is just the easiest perceived way to achieve that. Hence not being able to write the thing. If your goal genuinely was To Write A Novel, then you'd be doing it. I know some writers and they are mostly miserable people with books coming out of them like the chestburster in Alien. Not something any rational person aspires to.
That seems a schizoid thing as far as I can tell: You want a quick result in something that you invest your time in.
I can't conclude that from your example, and the evidence from the other responses which mention going to university would tend to disprove it is a schizoid thing. I suspect that it is general human nature and increasingly rewarded/sought in our Quick Win culture.