It's cool to see other opinions so I can learn more about me and SPD.
I am of a young age, yes, and I'm going to a psychologist so I can open myself in some topics and close some other things.
As for now, I don't like too much being around people but I'm trying to like it.
I feel superior for my knowledge but I have a very small EQ. I can't deal properly with sadness or anger because when I'm angry or sad I can cry a lot when I take a bad score in a test, for example.
My psychologist said that I'm what she'd call a schizoid in development. My father is a schizoid and my mom doesn't feel the need of having friends because she thinks that she only need our family to be happy.
I'm not sure about being a schizoid but I have a strange empathy. For example, I can only feel pity for things that I can relate with. For example, if I see sad news about a mother who found her daughter/son dead or vice-versa I'll be sad but if I see news about something that I don't know yet how it feels I feel like
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Sometimes I can start crying because of low self-esteem ("I'm a bad person" "I don't deserve to live" etc) and then I'll be happy because I think I'm smart.
To be honest, SPD is being glamourized by people who don't understand it at all. I am not sure if I'm a schizoid as APD/Avoidant personality disorder looks like me just like schizoid does. I'll need to see my psychologist later.