el-a wrote:Sabratha wrote:Actually this is alien to me.
If I want to do something and have the means and skills to do something, then I do it. If I have some potential and want to use it, then I probably will use it.
I do not suffer from motivation problems.
With me motivation is only half of the problem. It's just that I used to have a richer inner life with more imagination and fantasy which has become totally bland as I got older. I suffer from what Millon calls "inner barrenness". When I was 14/15 I wanted to become a graphic designer, comic book artist or illustrator. The seeds were there but the flower never developed.
That may not necessarily be a cause of beeing schizoid. For many people the most creative part of their lives is that when they are 15-18 as this is the peak of one's fluid intelligence. After that the fluid intelligence drops while crystallied intelligence rises.
Actually I was much more creative and imaginative when I was 16 or 17 then what I am now. But I don't think it is simply beeing schizoid, I think it is a trait of many humans.