I seem to experience nearly all aspects of SPD, including the psychodynamic aspects. Except for one thing: I'm not aware of having any fear of intimacy. But maybe it is there somewhere deep down, and maybe that is why I find social interaction boring and pointless.
But what even is intimacy? If it's the feeling of love, why should I fear that, as it's a nice feeling? If it's talking about myself, I don't see why that should be a problem either. I don't see why talking about myself is a big deal or why it is even supposed to be "intimate" or make me close to someone. In fact, I don't think I know why any activities that are supposed to be "intimate" are any different from any other activities. They don't feel different, aside from being maybe a bit weird and uncomfortable (ex. holding hands, eye contact).
I can like someone and feel fondness toward them. I can have high respect for someone and feel appreciation and loyalty toward them. I suppose these things are love. But what is intimacy? Is anyone able to answer that?