by BrigSnip » Fri Jul 17, 2015 5:51 pm
My typical day:
Get up around 11am. I only get up at that time because there was screaming in my head, or I had a nightmare and thought it was real. I take my medications right after getting out of bed. I don't eat breakfast because the bowls keep shouting at me. I feed the animals (we have two cats and a dog). I have to tell the refrigerator that we had a deal not to call each other names, but it never keeps its word. If there's something I have to do that day (I'm the only one in the house that drives) then I get ready for that. Normally there's errands, maybe an appointment, and the normal going-around things. A lot of times I hear voices and random noises in stores, but I rarely see things that aren't there. I've seen children turn into weird creatures, and one time while turning into the automotive section at WalMart I saw my dead grandmother turn into a dead alien and start shaking violently. When these things happen, I have to go to my car and wait for everyone else (I have a wife and a 13-year-old daughter).
When we get back from those (or if I don't have to do them on that day) I take medications again. I watch YouTube for maybe half a hour (or more), then decide to go for a walk because it doesn't help me to stay in the house all day. My walks are normally uneventful, and the voices are easier to drown out since I got an MP3 player. It's about a two-mile round-trip walk, where I go to the local grocery store and buy some snacks and anything we might need for supper that night. I have to circle around the blocks a few times because a weird little creature is following me: it looks like a pencil and it calls me the N word (I'm not black). Then I get home and do a random chore (cut the grass, do the dishes, etc.) just to feel useful. I typically have about an hour or two before supper, so I watch videos on-line and do some laundry. At supper, I take more pills.
From the end of supper until bedtime, I try not to do much. I need a new knee (IRL) so I try to take it easy. I'm usually watching videos more or finding new ways of sorting my stuff. An hour into this, I feel that I'm ignoring my family so I see what they're up to. During all of this (the chores, the supper, the walk, etc.) I'm hearing voices. None of them are nice. A few times, I've had to yell over them to make sure my wife could hear me, or I'll tell them to shut up and she'll wonder who I'm talking to.
We'll go over to the neighbor's for about an hour just to talk, then I'll have to leave because my thoughts are being broadcast from a plane that just flew overhead.
When I get home, I feed the animals and get a shower. Sometimes the showerhead insults me the whole time I'm in there, and sometimes it doesn't. I lay down on the bed and watch more videos. Maybe I'll have a snack. It's not time for my night meds yet. I remember that if I don't switch the clothes from the washer to the dryer, the world will end and it will be my fault. The walls breathe. The cat talks to me (all the time) but he'll change accents. Most of the time he has no accent, but he'll adopt a French, British, Australian, Canadian, etc. accent and keep it for the rest of the day. We talk about random things until he walks away in real life. He always tells me: "See ya later, prick!".
I take my night time medications. I have insomnia, so I take melatonin and trazodone. If I take them around 10 or 11pm, I can fall asleep around 2 or 3am. From the time I take medications until I fall asleep, I like talking to me wife. We spend almost the whole day together, so sometimes we don't have a lot to say and we watch a movie. I get a few recurring delusions, and about this time one comes up. People are watching me, the artificial sweetener companies have a monitor in me, people can hear my thoughts, the NSA is always making sure I'm being good, my grandfather isn't really dead and took the form of the nice neighbor lady down the street, the next-door neighbor's dog is talking to me about eating a kid's baseball, my fingers fall off, and so on.
I fall asleep and start it over the next day...