Sometimes that's all you can do is take it day by day. Eventually you'll get in a euphoric state and probably get lost in your talent.
Which is something.
I always say: it's not worth ending myself cause something might really make me laugh or feel wonderful in some way if only for a moment. So... why lose that just cause the rest of life sucks.
I had online drama... facebook and twitter. I went full on paranoid schizophrenic while using social networking sites a lot. Bad results.
Just gotta stay away from it.
It's hard cause the world is sucked in the matrix so you go and try to make friends there, but it's just not compatible for people with our type of brains (schizoaffective).
Twitter is: promotions, jokes/comedians, night life, and narcissism. If you DO want to go out, they can probably get you the right flyer...
Facebook: I'm Catholic (not pushing anything) and I stopped all social media for lent last year. After doing that is when I decided to close my Facebook. It was one thing when all kinds of people were attacking me, or when I was just lost in it putting up whatever I wanted, but after not being on there for a while I saw how people were. Putting up their "bold" statements waiting to be patted on the back. Real rebels. People trying to promote themselves who should be on Twitter (or whatever's hip for the hipsters nowadays, cause it can't be Twitter anymore... I hear their bringing back myspace
lol) and pictures of peoples kids... or their food... I think the main problem I have with it is it gives out too much information and is way too easily accessible. Not to mention all the photos. I mean when you get freaked out and feel scared and vulnerable the last thing you want is your full name and a million photos of you available from a google search away. My crazy ex-gf would obsess over me and start asking me questions about videos and things people put online that I didn't know were online. Not to mention strangers getting in arguments/etc. with me and then they start talking about my photos and etc. etc.
I suppose there's times to go to police but in my experience they do NOT understand mental illness. I can't say as if I've ever had a cop help me. Some of the female cops I've dealt with have been cool, male cops (I'm male) tend to get aggro for seriously no reason. They have such a control complex.
Anyway, I can't see someone say "no hope" with no replies and not try to say something. Of course, I think this is part of my disease honestly. When I get hopeless I try to make other people feel better. Pretend I'm not hopeless my damn self. But yeah, I relate a LOT to what you said and you definitely aren't alone.
Try to find that thing that's gonna make you laugh... laugh til' you cry and just get it all out one way or the other (whether laughing or crying).