Today my brother and I were fighting about something stupid and I got upset, almost cried, and pinched my brother's arm. He wasn't hurt, thank god, but I felt awful afterwards because I always feel like I'm being abusive to my brother in one way or another.
I'm 18 currently, but when I was younger like in my earlier teen years and prior to that, I would pinch or lightly slap my brother sometimes when I was mad. I don't mean like everyday (it was really on fairly rare occasions) and he would hurt me too sometimes, but I'm trying to control my anger better now that I'm older. Except today this happened and I feel so horrible for letting my anger get out of control and doing that.
I apologized to him twice but I don't know if that really means anything anymore. He didn't seem to bothered by it, but I can't be sure.
And as a side note - I always feel like I'm manipulating him or making him feel bad by what I say and it's not my intention, I have a tendency to want to correct people when they're wrong. I've been trying my hardest to be a better sister and to be nicer and everything, but tonight he struck a nerve and I got mad and pinched him and I don't know what to do.