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Why can't my mind let me trust her

Postby Raziel908 » Sat Jan 01, 2011 3:56 am

I have been off and on with a women that I love more then any other.For some reason my mind makes me think that she is with someone else behind my back.I know that in my heart it is not true,but my mind makes me feel diferrent.It won't let me trust her.I know she loves me more then any other.I have flipped out on her many times.But she is still there for me and loyal to me.I take Abilify and lithium.But I still can't control it.It is tearing my love life apart.I don't want to hurt her feeling anymore.All the other women walked away,but she has not.Please some give me some advice,I don't want to lose her. :(
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Re: Why can't my mind let me trust her

Postby sweetcheeks » Sun Jan 02, 2011 12:30 am

You know, I'm a receiver of your type of paranoia.

I've wanted someone I think has the same issues you may have, although I'm not 100% certain. However, I've been on the receiving end of your type of mentality and let me tell you...it's soul destroying.

Because of 'his' issues, he has chosen to miss out on 20 years of love, the best sex ever, maybe a couple of gorgeous children, a happy home and emotional stability and inner peace.

Instead....he has opted for a conveyer belt full of women to which he won't even remember their names on his death bed. :cry:

If you don't get some professional help with your paranoia, you WILL destroy and waste away the best years of your life. :|

Go get some professional help. There is nothing wrong with doing it if you value your life of course. If you're here purely to exist, then sure...swim in stigma and reap its rewards. :roll: I'm sure everyone will look up to you for it at your funeral. NOT. :oops:
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Re: Why can't my mind let me trust her

Postby sweetcheeks » Tue Jan 04, 2011 1:20 am

Can I just say...I think this is also based on how you value yourself.
On some level, you don't think you're good enough for her, and this WILL create paranoia for sure.

Some 21 years ago, I fell for someone who I have to admit, made me feel inadequate. It wasn't anything that he did particularly, other than ask me a question that I didn't understand, and instead of just saying, "what do you mean by that?"...I chose to answer it, not knowing what I was saying either yes, or no to. :roll: :roll: Maybe this has been my downfall, I don't know.

This little episode, mixed with my perception of who I thought he was created nothing but paranoia for me. He is only 6 years younger than me, yet at the time I thought it was HUGE! Life has proven this to be a ridiculous concept. :wink: However, given I had fallen for him straight away, I started to get paranoid about everything...I'm too old, too stupid, too fat, too boring...too everything.

In hind sight...I know that my paranoia developed because he actually pushed me away, he rejected me despite he showed interest. He created confusion within me, which naturally - turned to self doubt. I'm 100% honest and anything outside of this (for me) is totally foreign. Lies have no foundations, so it stands to reason that behaviours based on lies also have no foundations.

So, what did I do about it? I went off and became educated, I went to university and haven't stopped studying since. Two more subjects to go and I'll have my master's degree in psych. I have other supporting quals too and THIS has given me the confidence to no longer believe that I'm not good enough. Prior to doing this, I was married to a man who wanted me to stay 'dumb' for one of a better term. He was very insecure and so passively aggressively mistreated me: not physically, just emotionally. The point is...YOU have a responsibility to yourself to feel good about who you are. Find something that will help you become the person you actually want to be. Once you become that person, you'll find that who you are underneath isn't so bad after all. :wink:

The funny thing is though...I've got all these quals, yet none of them have brought any real financial rewards. Sure, I'm a teacher but it doesn't pay well. It's a good job that gives non monetary rewards, but don't ever expect to be a millionaire being a teacher. :| I made more money before I got the quals doing what I was good at, yet not truly valuing it...art! I'm now going back to it because it's my oxygen, my life support, it's what I love doing.

Good luck. :D
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Re: Why can't my mind let me trust her

Postby requiem for a dream » Wed Jan 05, 2011 10:38 pm

I have same problem, I imagine pictures in mind and places she went than I figure out who was there and get scenario of her cheating on me. It's horrible I can't get myself together I think about that whole time. I convince myself that it's true and than try to pull words out of her. I have BPD but not taking any anti depressants, I just don't want to do that no more. Can't trust her no matter how good it is to us. It makes me feel to hate everyone else...that kind of paranoia will kill me not to say other stuffs...
You are not alone and I feel better to know that I'm not.
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Re: Why can't my mind let me trust her

Postby RayRx » Thu Jan 06, 2011 2:18 pm

Here my thought; tell her what you told us and you both try to figure it out together.

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