by scarred_cutter » Wed Dec 10, 2008 9:47 am
hey hurtingmadly, welcome
so sorry that happened to you, that's a horrible event that no one should ever have to go through.
even though your body reacted towards him, it ISN'T your fault! most people who are raped, their bodies will react with some form of "pleasure" eg. lubrication etc. because your body doesn't know. your mind knows that you don't want this to happen, but your body is just functioning. it doesn't know that this isn't welcomed so it reacts as "normal"
if you didn't have this kind of bodily reaction, you wouldn't be normal. you'd be a robot because human bodies are sensitive to touch, whether it's wanted or not, and will react accordingly
please don't feel guilty about that. i know it's easier said than done, but it wasn't your fault
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