Hi, everyone.
I was raped 4 months ago and I couldn't have sex with my boyfriend at all after it, even the mere thought would make me feel sick.. he's been very understanding and everything and we've been sort of easing into it and have had sex a few times by now. the first time i just burst out crying and started shaking so he stopped and just held me. the next few times we did have sex but i got drunk before hand and those times i did not cry and felt normal and even okay. yesterday we had sex sober and again i started shaking and crying. any thoughts on why this is and how i can overcome this, i don't want to punish my boyfriend and cause scenes anymore??