So I am new here, and am looking for opinions on whether or not to see a doctor about this...
I am 19 years old, and I am a pedo-hebephile. I am apart of several community groups to help deal with this, and cope with my feelings... which led to me explaining how I can sometimes "see" little girls at night, even though no one is there. A group member led me to this site, to which I am asking if these occurrences are enough for me to go on to see a doctor, or just let it pass and see.
I don't interact or talk to these girls (then again I never tried to). The realest situation I had was when both my brother and I were driving back from a night class (I was passenger). It was Winter, and it was dark out when we were about 5 minutes from getting home. I saw a little girl (about wearing a pink sweater. This was around midnight, and freaked the hell out me, as she was just standing there in front of a bush. It scared me, and I sure scared the h*ll out of my brother by yelling out, and telling him to back up. I told him what I saw, but we did not see anything when we backed up. This was my first sighting, but now I see less prominent girls every now and then, always occurring at night, with the closest being about 8 feet away when I woke up one night
I have been going through a lot of both mental and physical problems regarding my feelings, which is why I think I am having these "hallucinations" for a lack of a better word.
Any opinions related to this would be appreciated - Matthew