When bad things happen to other people i have felt bad too.
For a long time i thought that the same thing should happen to me too, since i wasn`t there to prevent it in the first place.
I felt ashamed.
I still do. Even after all the examination and reason dealing.
Its like explaining to someone all the types of weather we can have, again and again, over and over.
"Its too late".
Never accepting the truth, the embarrassment, the tragedy for what it was and go on for other times and days and moments
I know neither you or he will be there for those moments, i have to live them for myself and nobody else
I guess that`s the only thing i really learned from him-its like when a soldier gets shoot at war and you were his friend, do you stop shooting because the bullets can kill you too?
For a long time i felt like a failure, not a good dialogue to have in your mind.
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on Fri Jun 10, 2011 12:03 pm, edited 1 time in total.