I broke my neck many years ago in a car accident. I use medical marijuana for pain management and SOMA only for acute pain episodes. I am sick of feeling like I am a bad person, lazy, drug addict, depressed. I realized recently I am not a horrible person. I am in cycle of chronic debilitating pain that is progressively getting worse. This pain causes depression and suicidal thoughts. Years of judgement and self hatred.
When friends and family say just get a job it really makes me angry. Like working is going to magically take away these problems. its not that simple. i contribute. I am not a loser. I am raising a teenager. I help my mother who is ill. I do not feel ashamed of living on permanent disability. The people that feel i am taking advantage of the system, please think. Why would someone choose to live in poverty?