withoutwax wrote: I lose it so much! I scream and yell. I don't hit but I spank more than I'd like and I'm afraid of it becoming more.
Are you spanking out of anger/frustration and/or a loss of control? If you are, it's something you should seek out help for.
I know the help I need... support from others who struggle. That's why I am here. I don't want 'professional' help for a lot of reasons. One of them is, as a professional, I know what they are going to say.
My daughter is in counseling and the therapist always meets with both of us for a half hour at the beginning. That helps.
Mostly, I just need another outlet (hopefully here) so I stop taking my frustrations out on others.
withoutwax wrote: This doesn't make me a bad mom! Right?
No one here can answer that honestly. We don't know the exact situation. Do you think you're a bad mom? Have you sat down and talked to your kid(s) about how they feel about how you handle/react to certain situations.
That's what I started doing with my Children. Their feedback helps.
She and I talk regularly about how our behavior affects the other person. I tell her how it hurts me when she does some things and give her a chance to say how I've hurt her. I always apologize too.
I'm not asking if I'm a bad mom. I'm asking if others feel the need for reassurance. I'm asking if others feel like they "lose it" sometimes.
My sister in law is actually a great support and tells me I'm a great mom. So does my boyfriend. But this illness is too big to leave just on them. that's why I'm here...