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Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby Peregrinus » Wed Apr 04, 2012 2:48 am

Yes apparently I do have the audacity to start a whole new thread just to introduce myself :D

Hope everyone is well and hanging in there. I found this forum a couple of months ago and have been meaning to get involved and put my two cents in.

I'm a 27 year old male and likely a pedophile. My preference is boys, aged 5-8 but I've been attracted to other males as old as 20 or so, depending on how "boyish" he looks. As far back as I can remember I've had these attractions; I've never had any interest in girls/women. I've been addicted to porn and masturbation since the age of 12, but thank God I have never acted on my attractions.

Over the last few years as I've progressed well into my 20's, my internal mental anguish has become much worse. I feel so alone with all of this...I do have a few friends whom I have told and who accept me and help me in any way they can, but they don't really "get it" because they don't live it. Basically I just want some friends that I can communicate with who understand exactly where I'm coming from...better to do that than continue to masturbate myself raw in my loneliness. I have a feeling that a lot of people on this forum know what it feels like to wake up every morning hating to be in their own skin, or feeling so ashamed of themselves or anxious that they can hardly talk to people or look others in the eye. That's the stuff that I need help with. Despite having these attractions, I want to honestly believe that I'm just like everyone else.

Thanks for taking the time to read.
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby FreeSpeech8 » Wed Apr 04, 2012 4:06 pm

Hi and welcome. I'm a pedophile too, 22 years old and attracted to girls about 6-12, and I'd be much more depressed if I hadn't told my closest friend about this (we don't talk about this often but it helps to know you are not completely alone with this secret, and secret it must be in our wonderful and helpful society). Despite all the misfortune, you are still fortunate enough to have trustworthy friends who don't judge you and that's great. Maybe they don't fully understand the anguish living with this paraphilia can cause, like other pedophiles can, but they are still there for you so stick with them.

Please, stop feeling bad about yourself. You have done nothing wrong. Your fantasies and desires are your own personal business and as long as you live with them without trespassing other people's rights and recognize the ethical responsibility having them bestows, like you've done judging by your post, you are just fine. You can PM me anytime.
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby hallja » Thu Apr 05, 2012 3:42 am

Feel free to PM me, I am more than willing to talk :-) You are not alone...20 here.

Only difference is I am more of a nepio...
Feel free to message me if you want :)
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby PNL2 » Thu Apr 05, 2012 2:29 pm

Welcome home :D

As others have said you have not done anything wrong as as long as you can continue on that path you will always be welcome here, and there is no need to be ashamed of masturbation or worried about how much is too much, if it helps you there is no such thing :lol:

My sex drive is a lot lower as I approach 40 but when a good fantasy springs to mind I go with the flow and the next morning I'm proud of myself for sticking to fantasies and not going out and looking for some poor child to give me those same few minutes of pleasure, you seem like a nice guy or those friends would not still be sticking by you, Have more faith in yourself and your friends, You are not unworthy of friendship and are not controlled by your attractions, Damn you seem pretty alright to me :D

Your friends have fantasies about women but they do not go out and rape them, you are just like all of us, you take responsibility for your thoughts and actions......well you are like a lot of us anyway...maybe not everybody has that kind of self control.
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby Peregrinus » Thu Apr 05, 2012 8:59 pm

Everyone, thank you so much for your kind responses. I had this scary thought that no one would even respond to my post! I guess I've just developed a certain expectation for rejection, but I think I'm starting to see that it really has no basis in reality...

Very much looking forward to settling in here and getting to know everyone.

Btw, I'm a bit anxious about Easter this Sunday as I'm getting together with family (always a difficult thing for me, as I'm sure a lot of you understand). I have a 6 year old cousin that I'm absolutely infatuated with, who is extremely fond of and affectionate toward me. If any of you are the praying type, please pray for me...I'll be praying for you :D
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby handsupforglory » Thu Apr 05, 2012 11:33 pm

Hello, i am probably the youngest pedophile you will speak to but PM me if you have any problems, or, if you simply want to talk. to state my age: i'm seventeen, almost eighteen now. I will be praying for you as often as i can.
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby revolutionex » Fri Apr 06, 2012 9:19 am

Welcome =) I'm 25, almost 26 and attracted to boys of about the age of 12 up to 22 or so. I'll pray for you about Easter.

My life definitely hasn't been the easiest since I also happen to be the son of a pastor. He accepts me for being gay, though I'm not out to the church and nobody--not even my family--knows about the minor-attracted side of me except for my best friend, though she makes jokes here or there and we laugh it off, but I do have serious moments where I get mildly depressed. People will be talking to me or carrying on a conversation and I sort of slip away into my thoughts, and it kills me.

Ugh, I wanted to structure this post a little better, but I'm tired and I admittedly haven't been back on these forums for a while except to read other people's posts.

Anyway, my main outlets are anything I can do that keeps me creative and keeps me thinking. I'm a writer, so I always have books to write that I'm trying to keep up with. I also have an obsession with good TV shows (mostly older ones...Heroes, Lost, Criminal Minds, Boy Meets World, Everwood, Alias...but newer ones I like are Touch, Shameless, Glee, Alcatraz...way too many lol). Good foreign and indie films are also a passion for me. I also make electronic music here or there, so I keep myself busy so I'm not overwhelmed by my feelings. That doesn't mean that every once in a while, I don't get horny (which I take care of quickly) or curious about my attraction from an objective standpoint. Surprisingly, there's been instances where I've found one leading to the other.

I value ideas and opinions a lot, so oftentimes, I find myself very intrigued by everything about this sort of attraction and I enjoy sharing and debating it in a healthy way and learning new things. I like to consider myself a cultured person, and I like learning. I think that's really in essence what we're all here for, more or less; to share our experiences and learn from them.

I enjoy everything about religion, philosophy, science, psychology...so many things and beliefs really that just fascinate me about human beings in general.

As you can see, we're all much more than our sexuality. And when we do get overwhelmed, it's nice to be able to come back here and talk to each other =) Of course in a better world, we would be able to seek help in safety and comfort and be able to talk about these attractions openly without fear, hatred, malice, and the isolation this life often brings to anyone like us.

Anyway, if you need to talk, I'm here as well =) :D

PS: Also, since you mentioned wanting to believe you're just like everyone else...just wanted to add that inside, I truly don't believe that anyone is so dissimilar from the rest of the human race. I think everybody likes to think so, whether they feel higher than others or lower. But really, we all have goals, fears, family issues, friend issues, job issues, and I think the most important one I'm trying to grasp lately is that none of us ever truly have it "figured out".

We like to think between being a teenager and suddenly being an adult is different, you're supposed to know everything now and be completely fearless. At least that's what I've thought for years, and it's not true, because I'm nearly 26 and still feel like a teenager. I think that's part of my problem, but I also think it gives me a bit better perspective on life in general.

I don't worry as much, yet I'm told by everyone that I should. I think my attraction gives me more than enough worry, but at the end of it all, I'd rather be a happy, caring, and compassionate individual who is judged on my character of love for other people than on how disgusting or outrageous my sexual attractions might be. I only hope society one day understands that we're all human.

I actually have this theory that if everyone for one entire month on this planet had every single one of their fears and sexual preferences laid bare, they'd be no better than any of us, and all such stupid pointless arguments would be over forever.
If you love a flower, don't pick it up. Because if you pick it up, it dies, and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation. - Osho
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby PabloEmilio » Wed Oct 10, 2012 11:38 pm

Hi to all. I am like you that thought I was alone with what the world tells me is a disease. You have no idea how good it feels to know im not the only one that feels like this. Anyone please message me so we can talk. Thank you
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby Blben » Thu Oct 11, 2012 1:28 am

I am a pedophile as well and feel free to pvt me if you want or anyone else for that matter, I tend to be on yahoo quite a lot so if you would like to chat just look me up, it kind of relates to my screen name here if you know what I mean.
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Re: Hi, I'm a pedo who needs friends

Postby LivingSoul » Thu Oct 11, 2012 6:01 am

Peregrinus wrote: Over the last few years as I've progressed well into my 20's, my internal mental anguish has become much worse. I feel so alone with all of this...

Unless you're really firm about the idea that there is something shameful and wrong with you, *removed name of chat room - PM poster for information. Not allowed on public boards for all forums, as chat is not a supported website affiliation*
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