Welcome =) I'm 25, almost 26 and attracted to boys of about the age of 12 up to 22 or so. I'll pray for you about Easter.
My life definitely hasn't been the easiest since I also happen to be the son of a pastor. He accepts me for being gay, though I'm not out to the church and nobody--not even my family--knows about the minor-attracted side of me except for my best friend, though she makes jokes here or there and we laugh it off, but I do have serious moments where I get mildly depressed. People will be talking to me or carrying on a conversation and I sort of slip away into my thoughts, and it kills me.
Ugh, I wanted to structure this post a little better, but I'm tired and I admittedly haven't been back on these forums for a while except to read other people's posts.
Anyway, my main outlets are anything I can do that keeps me creative and keeps me thinking. I'm a writer, so I always have books to write that I'm trying to keep up with. I also have an obsession with good TV shows (mostly older ones...Heroes, Lost, Criminal Minds, Boy Meets World, Everwood, Alias...but newer ones I like are Touch, Shameless, Glee, Alcatraz...way too many lol). Good foreign and indie films are also a passion for me. I also make electronic music here or there, so I keep myself busy so I'm not overwhelmed by my feelings. That doesn't mean that every once in a while, I don't get horny (which I take care of quickly) or curious about my attraction from an objective standpoint. Surprisingly, there's been instances where I've found one leading to the other.
I value ideas and opinions a lot, so oftentimes, I find myself very intrigued by everything about this sort of attraction and I enjoy sharing and debating it in a healthy way and learning new things. I like to consider myself a cultured person, and I like learning. I think that's really in essence what we're all here for, more or less; to share our experiences and learn from them.
I enjoy everything about religion, philosophy, science, psychology...so many things and beliefs really that just fascinate me about human beings in general.
As you can see, we're all much more than our sexuality. And when we do get overwhelmed, it's nice to be able to come back here and talk to each other =) Of course in a better world, we would be able to seek help in safety and comfort and be able to talk about these attractions openly without fear, hatred, malice, and the isolation this life often brings to anyone like us.
Anyway, if you need to talk, I'm here as well =) PS:
Also, since you mentioned wanting to believe you're just like everyone else...just wanted to add that inside, I truly don't believe that anyone is so dissimilar from the rest of the human race. I think everybody likes to think so, whether they feel higher than others or lower. But really, we all have goals, fears, family issues, friend issues, job issues, and I think the most important one I'm trying to grasp lately is that none of us ever truly have it "figured out".
We like to think between being a teenager and suddenly being an adult is different, you're supposed to know everything now and be completely fearless. At least that's what I've thought for years, and it's not true, because I'm nearly 26 and still feel like a teenager. I think that's part of my problem, but I also think it gives me a bit better perspective on life in general.
I don't worry as much, yet I'm told by everyone that I should. I think my attraction gives me more than enough worry, but at the end of it all, I'd rather be a happy, caring, and compassionate individual who is judged on my character of love for other people than on how disgusting or outrageous my sexual attractions might be. I only hope society one day understands that we're all human.
I actually have this theory that if everyone for one entire month on this planet had every single one of their fears and sexual preferences laid bare, they'd be no better than any of us, and all such stupid pointless arguments would be over forever.
[color=#BF4040]If you love a flower, don't pick it up. Because if you pick it up, it dies, and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation. - Osho[/color]