I have written erotic stories in the past, but that was when I was a teenager and it was mostly fanfiction. Nowadays if I feel so inclined or even if it's simply out of the boredom and frustration that comes from writer's block, I'll type up a short few paragraphs, but I never save them. I just backspace.
What's been incredibly productive for me is fighting my own inner demons through the use of poetry and writing novels, where I'll often work on subtle themes or symbolism, though my latest idea has been to write a thriller similar in nature to Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, in which a desperate father's son is dying, so he turns to Russian gangsters in order to obtain a heart illegally. They meet up in Malta, and the father notices a young boy of about his son's age traveling with the men. He is told not to talk to the boy (whose name in Andrei) so when he does, the gangsters threaten him and kidnap his wife. They also leave Andrei behind in the hotel, and it's later revealed the kid is a popular subject in online pedophile circles that share boy modeling sets. The men he was traveling with were not his typical handlers, and Ivan, the guy who essentially "owns" him, had threatened them. In turn, they had plotted to cut out the boy's heart to sell to the man.
Now finally seeing a way out, Andrei begins telling the man his story, and after much convincing, the two team up to take down the organizations that control the modeling and exploitation of other boys.
That's just a rough idea of course, but it's important to me to put a human face on this issue. I find that when those like us allow our desires to take hold and get so wrapped up in them, you don't really see the people anymore. That tends to happen in any field of pornography or obsession, though. You only see the object of your desire, and so I always strive to keep my characters human.
If you look beyond the facade of your own desires, no matter how deviant, you will see the humanity in those people, and therefore within yourself.
I think that's really why I write...to not only get past my issues, but to remind myself and others that we're all human, and none of us were born monsters.
[color=#BF4040]If you love a flower, don't pick it up. Because if you pick it up, it dies, and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation. - Osho[/color]