Depending on how deeply ingrained the fetish is, you might be to leave it behind, or at least keep the thoughts and fantasies to a minimum. Since you don't want to meet somebody online, it's going to be difficult to find somebody who shares it. I think stopping looking at that type of porn is a good idea, maybe try to cut out porn altogether (if you can). Are you able to find women attractive and arousing without the fetish? If so, that is a good thing, I think you should focus on that as your goal, it sounds like you have made some good progress on this already. If you find somebody who really loves you, you could try telling her about about your fetish, if you feel it is important enough to risk your relationship; but why run the risk if you don't have to? Or maybe by that time your mind may have moved on to other things. I would be really careful about letting fetishes determine your life.
Edit: I danced around the subject a bit in the preceding paragraph, so let me tell you how I really feel. When you find other people who share your fetish, it makes it seem more "normal," more like a part of yourself, you become less ashamed, and begin to think of it more and more. So I think that staying away from this material might be a good course of action. It might seem like fun now, but you really don't want to get to the point where this is the only thing you that arouses you, that's not good, not good at all. The biggest concern is that you will start to become aroused when thinking or looking at actual babies and diapers (even though your fantasies don't involve actual children). Also there is the fact that the deeper you get into this stuff the weirder it gets, and the harder it is to relate to "normal" people sexually and socially. That's just my humble opinion. I'm really torn as to what to say here. On the one hand I don't want you to feel guilty about your fetish, on the other hand I want you to very carefully weigh the costs of having it possibly control your life. Remember, this is just a silly fetish, the lifelong relationship you may someday form with somebody is so much more important than this. I don't want you to miss out on that opportunity because of some silly sexual obsession you once had.
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