I have a bit of a problem... I have great difficulty enjoying sex, and part of it is because I can't really get off just focusing on the intercourse itself (which I find repulsive). The only things that really arouse me sexually are extremely violent - things I could never do to a sexual partner and still maintain their safety. I feel distressed and guilty about these fantasies, many of which have to do with torturing and subjugating women - to such extremes of skinning, human vivisection, genital mutilation, etc. I also am aroused by the sight of people being mauled by animals. I'm very confused by these thoughts because they primarily arose within the last year or two, out of the blue (before that, I merely disliked sex and found basically nothing arousing). I have always been by nature a very peaceful, compassionate, gentle person. I rescue animals, volunteer for homeless shelters, write letters and protest human and animal welfare causes, and generally hate the idea of people suffering. Why, then, should such horrible violent thoughts arouse me? Input appreciated!
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