hatemyself35 wrote:No, I feel the same. I mean I'm definitely not attracted to per-pubescent children even though I had a lot of material depicting them. I am sometimes attracted to teen girls who have womanly features but I think that's perfectly normal - I mean girls don't immediately become attractive as soon as they turn 16, do they?
If you are not sexually attracted to prepubescent children, then why did you have "a lot of material depicting them?" If you didn't "need" this (thus could stop yourself), then why did you keep it and continue to pursue it? Did you masturbate to these images of these prepubescent children? Are you prepared to face a "sex history polygraph" and a "penile plethysmograph", one or the other which you will likely be subjected to one or the other (or both) and will the results of these procedures match what you have told us thus far?
I may be sounding accusatory; which is not my real intent. I'm not trying to 'argue for the prosecution"; in fact, I'm trying to "argue for your successful recovery". I suspected AirWolfFan will agree with me when I say: Your level of honesty to these questions will have a direct impact on the success of your recovery. If we are not honest with ourselves, we will believe our own lies; and if we believe our own lies, we will fail. These are also question you will face in due time, under the scrutiny of various levels of sexual offenders and under the observation of trained sex abuse therapists. If you feel that you must keep some things to yourself or lie to others, I will not judge you; but do not lie to yourself or keep things from yourself.
I hate your screen name. I hope it changes; and I hope how you feel about yourself will change as well.