GMG wrote:Were you always atracted to children? Did you guys always knew about it?
It's something I figured out as a part of my more general sexual awakening around adolescence.
GMG wrote:Do you guys fantasize with children only?
Nowadays I do. When I was younger I tried a number of fantasies in the process of figuring out what worked at all, and what worked best. Since I'm primarily attracted to prepubescent girls, I eventually stopped bothering fantasizing about adults, since I didn't get as much pleasure out of those fantasies.
GMG wrote:What do you feel when you ser a Child,is it the same as a normal adult when it see a Grown woman\man?
I'm not psychic, so I don't really know what other people feel. When adult attracted individuals have described their feelings to me, it matches pretty well with what I feel about children.
GMG wrote:Is it romântic and sexual too?
I feel both, though various factors both internal to me at the time and external in the environment control to what degree I feel each in a given situation.
GMG wrote:What age were you when you find out about it?
It was sort of a process in my case, and I can't really pin down the moment I knew. I definitely knew I was attracted to little girls before I attached those feelings to the word "pedophilia".
My school's late elementary/early middle school sex education teacher made mention of the myth about being able to cure HIV by having sex with a baby, and my reaction was different from that of the rest of the class. It was only significantly later that I pieced together why my reaction was different.
GMG wrote:Is it possíble to be a pedi and not know it?
It's certainly possible. I didn't know until I tried fantasizing about young children and found that I liked that more than fantasizing about adults. Before I tried that, I didn't know I was a pedophile.
GMG wrote:Can a normal heterossexual man change to pedo with ocd?
That question is a bit above my pay grade, I'm afraid. My experience of pedophilia is as a sexual orientation that hasn't changed particularly much since early childhood. If this is possible, it isn't the path my sexual development took.
GMG wrote:If i'm primarly atracted to Grown woman i cant be one, right? Thanks and sorry, promise its my last tópic!
Being a pedophile means you're primarily attracted to prepubescent children. If you aren't primarily attracted to prepubescent children, you aren't a pedophile by definition.
Having an occasional passing fantasy does not make you a pedophile, and of course, having a pedophilic sexual orientation doesn't make me a monster either, so there's nothing to be afraid of either way.