I'm extremely paranoid of all of my friends. I could have an amazing day out with them, enjoy the whole thing, smile for hours on end, laugh like there's no tomorrow, and it'll all go to waste. As soon as one friend says "Thanks, I had a great time", my mind gets thinking. There's no way they really had that great of a time, they must be saying that to make it look like we're really friends! As if it's clockwork, within an hour of someone complementing me, or thanking me, I will be utterly convinced they hate me, and I will be angry at them for deceiving me. The thing is, it's not my conscious mind. Right now, I know that all of my friends are amazing people who would never do anything like that. But in the back of my mind is a suggestion that maybe, just maybe, they're not. Maybe they're all plotting against me. It all makes sense! I am sick of it! Today is my best friend's birthday. I had an amazing time, and after giving her her gift, she thanked me and gave me an amazing complement. I was in heaven, because I had this euphoric sense of mattering to someone. Someone appreciated me, and enjoyed spending time with me. But then, the little thought in the back of my head started creeping forward. Right on time, I started hating her for betraying me. I realized that made no sense, but somehow... it did. I can't explain it, but it just felt right to assume that there's no way we can actually be friends. I don't know how, I don't know why, but I do know that I am DONE feeling this way. Please, someone, tell me what to do. I am willing to try ANYTHING to fix this. I can't live like this.