Do I have HOCD? Or is this real?

Hi, my whole life I've always been attracted to women. In fact, the sight of two men kissing made me vomit. I dont know how this started, but I've recently developed this vicious cycle of questioning my sexuality. I know for a fact that I'm not gay because I love women, but it's almost like a Bisexual-OCD. And now every time I look at guys I think to myself "am I attracted to him?" "do I just fear admitting it because of a social stigma?"..But I've literally always been straight and never thought about it. On top of this, I can't tell if a guy is better looking than another guy, but I can definitely do that for girls. Please help me. Thanks

Hello, Jack. Have a look in the thread by margharris, entitled, "Great guru for ocd - Fred Penzel.' If you click on the link in that thread, then look at page 2, there's an article, (number 25, I think), about obsessive worries about the possibility of being gay. Hopefully, that may help you.